As you do...

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As for me noggin...*Shrug*...
QUOTE(Acadian)
I knew generally of both your memory and depression concerns, McB. Thanks for putting a finer point on it. Do the docs think things can be halted from deteriorating further or (dare we hope) reversed to some extent?
I hope you know you have many friends here who dearly love the badgerly joy you bring to us.
Fair dues...

...*Manleh and respectful embrace complete with back patting...*...
It's not something I like to talk about, really...Methinks that sounds awfully familiar...Aaaamywho, I did agonize over saying anything at all...But...I dunno, I was here a lot, then I wasn't; and these days I keep coming and going away having alluded to stuff...
You're all, and have ever been excellent friends...I should have just been out with it from the get-go, I suppose...

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The short answer to the deterioration thing is...*Shrug*...It's ma brain...It's already had more than its fair share of a hammering during the massive drink problem I had...Plus the months that Mary-Jane was added to the mix (though not for much more than a few months, I was basically a drinker...as if that means anything really...

)...Plus the odd time when there was...Other things added...
The doctor was saying that it's not a case of reversing, it's just that if we can stop it getting worse, I may be able to get my brain to get to these things another way, eventually building it back up...
I'm not sure how to describe it really...
Imagine a room - no, wait, go with it - there's a room, and all your knowledge is on bookshelves and there's desks to work everything out on...And it's all spaced out and you can get to everything...
So you look down at what you're doing...
And now you look up aaaand, you
think the walls are somehow a little closer but all the stuff's there so all can work fine...
So you go back to it...
and then you look up and not only are the walls closer
again, but the bookshelves are all messed up...And you're not sure if everything's actually still there 'cause you're
sure there were more bookshelves before...and you look down at the desk and it's not what you were working on - or is it?...So you go to look at another desk, but when you turn around - was it that desk or another?...
You think that's confusing?...You should try living it...
QUOTE(Grits)
McB, Im glad it turned out to not be Alzheimers. I hope they can come up with a way to prevent further damage and help you regain some ground. Were dealing with something similar in the Grits household, and I know how frightening it can be and how helpless the whole family can feel. As Acadian said, your friends here are wishing you well.
Preventing further damage unfortunately means managing to rid myself of all stress and depression...Sadly, this ain't gonna happen any time soon...

...It's simply down to literally
all the people around me having their own *stuff to deal with; and people not behaving decently; and...Life...So, I'm doing my best...But this past year has been one thing after another...and we're only just coming out from under the stress that the accident earlier in the year left us with...
All down through the years I've kept myself up and just...Shrugged stuff off...Clearly this was a mistake...*Sigh*...
See, this is why I avoided saying things...I whinge...

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But thank you...

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QUOTE(Mirocu)
One thing ye can do to stimulate yer brain is sitting down with a crossword puzzle or soduki/suzuki
No...Just...No...
Robert and Maths do not mix...Especially now...

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Cheers all...But if I do disappear, this is why...I'm just having...moments is all...

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