Oh, nothing special has happened. I got cynical long ago from stuff happening that I didnīt like. You know, changes being made that I had no control over

Yeah, those things you can't change or changes you can't stop - the only way to keep from getting hard or cynical is to let them go by and move on, because nothing you do will alter some things - so may as well accept them and not let them shape you (because everyone has their own things like that happen in every one's life, so we all go through this - may as well take your lumps along with the rest of us, lol).