QUOTE(McBadgere @ Apr 18 2014, 03:44 PM)

I would just like to take this moment to make an Statement...
I have a pretty major manic-depression problem...Think Spike Milligan but with less money, talent and, above all...Hair...
Most likely, the instant I read that mALX was back, I was shocked beyond all reason...For reasons that I'm pretty sure I've made obvious by now...
I tried to manage behind suspicion and somewhat manic though possibly autopilot humour, but I wasn't really here...I think...
That rant earlier in the week should have made me stay away...But no, I kept coming back...Damn you kind people who actually enjoy my company...
And there, all the time, churning in the back of my mind was...Bad Robert...Whispering the usual paranoid crap that it usually does...Bringing back the clichéd old arguments and whatever...
This morning I woke up...Wrong...It's a feeling...A physical feeling like you're not in control at all...It's like there's two people and the other one's in control...No, I'm not schizophrenic...It is literally like it's you, but absolutely not you...
And I couldn't help myself...I genuinely couldn't help myself...
And while I completely admit this looks like an excuse after the fact...I've told enough of you about this often enough...I warned a couple of you about it earlier in the week...
I really really didn't realise how bad I'd gotten, until Darkness Eternal's reply...
And I was absolutely shocked about my behaviour...
Therefore, I will take this opportunity to offer and complete, honest and genuinely heartfelt apology to Darkness Eternal for this and any other slight I have done to him down the years...
I know that we are unlikely to ever be the best of friends...But yes, we're more like a family here...And brothers fight...According to mALX, we do actually have an awful lot in common, if I'd actually tried to find that out...
Oh...And trust me, I like DE more than I like my actual RL brother...At least Darkness Eternal is talented...
Sooooo....
I unreservedly apologise to Darkness Eternal...
*Offers forearm to Darkness Eternal to grasp, much like Gannicus to the mighty Crixus...* can we at least do brothers?...
I shouldn't have done/thought/said it...
I think I should take that break I mentioned earlier...
Look, Mcbadgere. We've all been there before. We aren't perfect. We make mistakes and we make people angry and sometimes we disappoint ourselves. I've been there. In fact, I'm there right now along with you. So I'm not letting myself stand by and you get all the blame when it was partially my fault to have gone to extent of making a joke of banning members in light of what transpired here. I should've known better that it would make me look like a culprit, especially with all the negative attention I had from everyone during the recent years. That wasn't my intent.
I do accept your apology, and I hope you can accept mine. As I've said before, I don't want harm to come to the forums at all. I like many of the members here. Many of you are talented individuals and good people that do the community good. Hell, I don't hate the Everything Thread. I maybe just feel a bit lost whenever I come in here to try and join when things do a different direction, but that's not even the issue.
I love these forums. I mean, it's pretty obvious now. I've been here for years now. I devoted so much time and effort into writing that I posted my creations here instead of anywhere else. Everyone here is likeable.
So, Mcbadgere, I do hope our personal differences won't cloud each other's judgment to one another in the future. Everyone else here have differences and yet they keep things on the down low. I can learn from that.
The false member had us all on edge. My bitter feelings on mALX absence was amplified when my unfortunate history with the secondary profile was brought up and the fact I had to justify such action with my true intent on getting more feedback for my fiction which everyone else seemed to be getting for theirs. Eh, I feel bad again.
But thanks, McBadgere. I appreciate your time to apologize. And I accept it, as I hope you accept mine.
*Reaches out and grabs forearm much like Crixus and Gannicus*

So, we can put this all behind us and forget about that dark stain that instigated this mess to begin with.