I got an 85% on my Colorado State Police written exam and a 96% on my certification. Here's hoping those scores are good enough to move on.

life is good. school and work keep me uber busy but can't really complain i suppose. Finally got a computer again after my other one crashed last march, hence my ridiculously long absence.

Well, I have officially sold out.

That is. I now have my own XBox 360, and the GOTY edition of Oblivion.

Now, I don't expect most folks to know that I have had my grumblings with ES4, but I have. I have loved morrowind to the point that I have written my own Fan Fic about my main character on that installment on the series.

But here is the thing. After playing Morrowind for the last two or three years straight, and dabbling here and there in Oblivion at my brothers, I think I am starting to like Oblivion a bit more.

Granted the two have nothing to do with one another, but the truth is Oblivion is simply different. Any and all negative perceptions of it are carried with the player. What I love most about the series is a good dungeon crawl with my assassin, and here are the points I enjoy more in OB then Morrowind:

1.) While alot of the dungeons are look-alikes in OB, the loot is 100x better,. Morrowinds was like: Fortify willpower 1-10 points for 5 seconds. I mean really, who would use that? The only thing Willpower was good for in Morrowind was an increased chance for resisting magic, and the sin the time you used that, you could cast a fireball of doomzors@!@

2.)The stealth system is much more inuitive. That is you have walk slowly under a certain skill level, and light actually affects your stealthiness. My only real grumble is that they made it too easy to level it up. Whereas with Morrow, it was nearly impossible to level up sneak under 50, then it just got ridiculously easy to level it.

3.) Poison for my assassin! Yes now I can create those poisons and bring someone down before they reach me! Besides. Poison...for my assassin! No?.....fine...

4.) Hoods! For my assassin looks soooo much more badass then just netch leather cuirass.

Granted most of these points are just superficial, I regradless seem to enjoy them nonetheless, and have come to terms with Beth's job with OB, and have decided to enjoy what I can out of it until VI comes out. IF it comes out.

Besides, this means I will probably have a Fan Fic for OB, for my two or three fans out there.

Who will it be? I aint tellin'....in this sentence.

My next Fan Fic will not feature Sethyas, but the Breton Assassin (What else did you think?) Astor Devereaux, the most interesting character that has survived my manic delete + create 300 characters.

Also, don't expect Sethyas' honor in this guy, he's more: "Murder,...with a touch of class."

Ooooo goody goody goody! New material from the Black Hand! And a new character to delve into as well. I'm sure he'll be just as memorable as Sethyas has been to these forums.

Well, its not an IMMEDIATE material thats going to be written. I still have a lot of character development to delve into. I mean one of my problems with OB is the fact that the main storyline's moral compass is far too rigid. At least with Morrowind, you could still save the world for selfish or evil reasons.

I mean Vivec is the real "Bad Guy", though very well disguised. Hell, there are subtle aspects to the Game Im STILL picking up on. Thats why I like these series, because they are literally alternate worlds I can delve into. I am NOT a gamer, I dont like D&D. Therefore my interest into these genre's are very strange.

Sure I like some video games, and play them a little bit. Mass Effect was actually pretty cool. I was an 'Infiltrator' actually, a futuristic assassin, if people understand the blending of Engineer and Soldier to be the blending of Warrior and Thief archetypes.

But most of all I play these games because they can hold my interest more then any others I play.

Megil!
Great to see you here! I've missed you darn it!


Blackie!

I'm so looking forward to read your new fanfic! It's gonna be awesome I just know it....but please don't forget Seth....

It may please(a few of) you to know I'm sort of writing again...I have a plan for Serene, now I know how life will continue for her

Pits of despair can be only so deep, Canis. If nothing, go back home, drink some wine or anything that gives you pleasure, eat some chocolate, watch a good movie. Really, just enjoy a moment or two. I learned the hard way how valuable good moments in life are and how good and worthwhile even a cheap laugh is.

Life is easy on me. Most of the time.

Funny you should say you played and Infiltrator in Mass Effect, so did I. I'm writting a fanfic for Mass Effect and you can drop in on the unofficial Mass Effect thread if you're interested.

The news just keeps getting better! More Serene as well. I particularly have interest in seeing this one continue

Sethyas will be finished before I even go around worrying about that new one.

Oh, do you now??? hehe....


Ahhh excellent my friend....excellent!


btw I'm going to my brother tonight, we're gonna have a big fat party.....yayy!

New episode of House in a bit.

School is going so damn slow now... last semester, a month seemed like a day.

Of course, now I can't get enough sleep even if I sleep 8-10 hours. I'm just exhausted from school. It's crunch time in school now in pretty much all my classes. I have a painting due a week in AP Studio Art... we're picking up in speed in AP Calculus... we have tons more to cover in AP Chemistry... and we're speeding up our poetry unit in AP English Lit and Comp. The increased pace, however, has just made it seem like it's screeched to a hault. I'm going to try ultra-hard this semester to make all A's and pass my exams.

I also have to pick my pace up in my Network+ book so I can complete the book before the end of May. *sigh* So much to do.

I'm ready to go to college, live on my own. Just so tired of this damn town and its people.

I'm hoping the obnoxious pseudogoth bigot doesn't join the Young Democrats club I'm in... it's probably for her own good if she doesn't. If she spouts any of her quasi-neo-Nazi crap she'll end up with everyone there, including the sponsor, hating her. She's racist and extremely homophobic. Even the kids in there that don't agree with gay marriage would probably find those traits disgusting. I've never met such a coward as to go behind her black and gay friends' back and talk crap about them and how much she hates them because they're X.

Well, there been some good and bad...... *takes deep breath* On one hand, I got my braces off (yahoo!!!) and have moved on to retainers (painful, but I think I'll cope). Also I've moved from my old room to a much darker (good point) room and a new bed.

Then the bad begins that at Tenek's house: I fell off of one of his rip-sticks (new scateboard model) and I might have broken my left elbow (for the third time in my life/ at least I'm not in a bunk bed anymore). This semester hasn't been anything different than the last, probably due to the fact that all of my courses were year-long highschool (end of the summer I'll be there!) credit.

Mas o menos, life is still good overall, what with only one fully mobile arm and a painful new tortu- erm, dental device on my teeth.

Ugh, today, I felt awful. Well, I currently feel awful. I had a headache and I feel like I'm going to vomit.

Haven't had dinner. Mother just got home. Should have cleaned dishes, but I had a horrible headache.

I had surgery today. I'm feeling a little dizzy from the painkillers, and it still hurts, but it's ok. Everything went smoothly and I should be up and about again soon. Luckily it was ambulant so they shipped me home a few hours after the operation. Now I'm sitting here on my bed, trying not to move anything and just waiting for something interesting to happen. Since I'm very far away from the screen, I sometimes have to use binoculars to even see anything, but luckily my web browser has a pretty well-working zoom functiion.

On that note, people, if you think something is wrong with you, don't wait to see a doctor, go right away. The not-knowing will cause you no end of stress, and it usually does NOT get better on it's own. It certainly wouldn't have with what I had, quite the contrary. I'm glad I went to have surgery right away while it was still easily managable!

Painkillers, eh? Hardcore you are, like MC Max Payne, the Dealer of Death.

Another day, another late shipment from HQ. This time, thank god, I left with 2 last people, and we locked up. Why 'thank God' you may ask? Well, I always feel a sting of guilt when I go home at 6 [work hours is to 5 ] and other people, storagers and techies, are still there. No such trouble this time, even our boss, who was all day with his ill mom in some spa, said "OK, this can wait until tomorrow, really". Thank God I work with nervous, but normal people.

Although, I'd love to live in a land where every overtime hour of work is paid...

Jeez, has everyone died or something? Where's the chatter!? Chat it up people!

My week was a mix of good and bad. The awesome was the fact that I went to a sweet concert that had All That Remains headlining with Chimaira, Divine Heresy, and Gone Hollywood. It was an awesome show and I got to hang out with some friends I haven't seen in a little while.

The bad was basically yesterday since I planned to go to my college for the Extra Lab so I could catch up on some labs I still need to finish. Thing is I basically slept through my alarm and now my labs are considered late... ohwell.

I'm particularly excited for my birthday this year despite the fact that it's on a Monday. Sunday night I'm going to a Clutch concert and I'm trying to get as many of my friends to come to it as possible.

Still alive here.... Can't surf as much in my new job. Or rather, I can still surf, but I can't post. And then, too, I have lately been burning up the roads of upper E. Tenn. going to Kingsport, Johnson City, and Blountville last week. We are surplusing old PCs and have to run a utility called KillDisk to ensure that they don't contain any sensitive data. Lots of things can be done remotely, but this is a hands-on process. It's kind of fun- I get 46 cents a mile for using my own vehicle. And my dad was born in Kingsport- other family was in Johnson City, Bristol, and other towns up that way. Hope everyone is doing well.

I got myself back to addicted to a site I dare not mention (starts with an n and ends in an s).

It's time for me to start picking out some dates of new student orientation. It feels like forever until then, though.

Last week was full of frustrations and things to make me angry. The person I didn't like joined Young Democrats, and a person in my CIS class has been making me very miserable. What's new? Nothing, really.

I have not been posting much because not much ES-related is occurring in my life. I have been working on fiction but a distraction (another game, a multi-user online game, eep!)[1] has emerged that has cut into that. This is a bad thing. I'm trying to reduce this distraction and get back to my fiction writing. I have some stories in progress, but the main one now is a an elder scrolls story. You'll get to see and learn more about some familiar (heh heh) characters ... if I can only get the story to not suck ... and if only I can get it finished. Because it is largely original material, not a retelling of a game or plugin story, I have to get it entirely (well, mostly) finished before I start posting. There is not a strong plot but I am hoping that the characters will make up for this.

Yesterday, for the first time in a while, I played several hours of Morrowind. It was good to be back. I think 20 years in the future, when linux and windows are both long obsolete, I'll still be playing Morrowind in an emulated machine ... maybe then I'll finally get a decent frame rate.

what else ...?

Oh yeah: Back in x-mass I received a Barnes & Noble gift card. I eventually got around to using it and ordered a DVD set: the complete Buck Rogers series! yay! When it arrived, one DVD was scratched. Poop. I contacted their returns department and at first they indicated that exchange for another copy was an option (good!)... but then said they were no longer in stock on that item and most likely would never be. Feh!

Zarrexaij: you now have me now dying of curiousity: to what site do you refer???

Milanius: Me too. :/

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[1] - some people take these on-line games wayyy too seriously. It's a game not a job or a religion!

I'm still reading this, but just kinda skim reading so I don't really absorb much, I am fairly busy with 2 jobs (need to apply soon for a 3rd) plus other commitments. But been fairly good otherwise.

It's strange...ppl actually have more than one job? I have quite enough with my single one! Or maybe it is two actually...at least . Then again I only get one salary so...nevermind!

Anyway I now see the end of my contractor-work and by the end of the week I'll be home again. You might think I'm a weirdo, but I would gladly have stayed for another couple of weeks! Of course it will be nice to see my cat and what's left of my family but I've had a good time here and I have absolutely no yearn for the work back home! Here I can be on my own, I decide what I'll do without having to ask anyone, nobody interferes with my life. It's pretty nice!

My daughter is doing well in her medical studies, the other daughter will graduate from "college" in june and my som will be a "nasty teenager" in may! Nice future huh?

My old dad has had two surgeries in the last two weeks, one for changing his pacemaker and one pretty major one taking care of his vascular problems. He had severe lack of circulation in his left leg, but hopefully it will be better. This surgery he had today, he's ok but extremely tired.

So now I better go to bed...working day tomorrow!

Meh, I'm still jobless and now stuck with crappy internet.

Here, people usually have to have a side-job if they have a family and small child; otherwise, there is no other way to support a family.

It could be worse. It could always be worse. You could wake up and realise you don't wish to wake up or get up at all.

It's another dog day sunrise. Every bloody day of my life. Greeted by yelling because I can't say 'thanks' on time after a 'bon apetite'. Pieces of that pastry are still stuck inside of my throat; too bad I didin't choke on them. That would make some people happy, no doubt.

Welcome back. Missed you.


Ow. I hope he recovers nicely.

I know. This is why I say "meh" instead of "woe is me". I know I'll get a job sometime fairly soon (by which I mean, within a month or two), I just want one now. A good one. I mean, someone could hire me tomorrow if I took a job with no prospect of helping my future career goals. But then I'd be in the same mess as soon as that job was up.

Ouch. I woke up, you don't wanna hear how. Then I drove to work, aching as usual and I was convinced it was Monday or Tuesday. Days seem to blend into one big endless pile.

But strangely, there was no usual strained atmosphere at work. It was actually decent, and I even got to give our new female colleague a bag of candy [ey, it's St. Valentine's and I don't know her that well].

Feeling better. A bit. Just a little bit.

This place sure has quieted down since I last checked in on it, maybe its just because of my time zone, ah well.

Anyway, I've had a pretty disturbing last few months, for reasons I won't go into, but I pretty much just keep up my spirits by playing video games, focusing on school, and listening to music. Awesome, and ever so interesting, I know.

I, for one, do not work, but I do help out around the house a lot more than I used to. Meh, not much to brag about, but it helps me mentally, and it certainly helps my dad mentally. I'm gearing up for junior year of high school next year, as I've got class registration to consider.

And theres nothing to report on the social life front.

Well, thats about all thats going on.

Last week had me in such a rut. I was stressed out because one vehicle is down, another to go, and my father probably won't get either professionally fixed. One of my "friends" was being a big blowhole, and my ex has been on an off with making me feel depressiong and pissed off. I've been stressed out because of new student orientation stuff. Not much good has happened to me, but at least Valentine's Day didn't get me horribly depressed like I thought it would. The day after... well, yeah. Nice reminder that I'm single. I'm still single by choice, but we broke up because... well, I don't want to go there. Too painful.

I'm now sick and probably should get off soon. I've just had a horrible week, and hopefully Tuesday will be better. I expect to be very sick tomorrow.

Well, things haven't been so bad on my end. My progress report had a lots of (A)s and two ©s, not so good, I've got to work on that. In other news, last night we had my church small group's meeting at my house. It was great, considering I was champion at checkers; I defeated every challenger at it, but since I've never put much effort to learn chess, I did not fair too well in my one game of it.

So anyway, I've got to raise those ©s and keep those (A)s. I wish you luck Zarr, hope things smooth out.

Well I had to work today and it was surprisingly brutal, but it was a holiday ("Family Day") so that could be the reason why. The main problem was that two of the people that do the cooking didn't show up, which made everyone more than a bit frustrated. The good thing that came out of this is that Igot paid time and a half, which definitely made the hard work worth it.

S****.
Zarre, your "friend" sounds like a proper a**hole. Screw him. As for Valentine's, screw it too.

Get rested and re-hydrated. I am serious, don't even log onto this pile of crud called 'internet' filled with more crud until you're feeling better.

I can relate to then 'brutal' and 'frustration' part, except it's nearly every 2nd day like that for me. I wish one of these days clock would just freeze at 08:00 and let me sleep eternally.

Oh well. Another day, more pointless singing in the Pit of Despair.
Calavera no llora
Serenata de amor
Calavera no llora
No tiene corazn
I want out, god damn it.

edit: Yes, yes I still want out. Let me the **** out. Out of this monkey house in which terrorists are awarded their own countries.

I just saw Rambo (4) yesterday, it was pretty dang sweet (metaphorically). I haven't seen the other movies, but I've got a new favorite action hero. It's hard to believe Sly Stallone could do all of that whilst being out of his youth and directing the movie himself.

Rambo's pretty brutal, but that's to be expected I suppose. It takes place in Burma, where there is a real-life genocide going on. I give the movie a 4.5 out of five.

There was much fear at Casa Treydog Friday and Saturday. My computer would not start Windows. Finally got into Safe Mode and backed up essential files- (thank Azura for USB flash drives). Did some research and was re-introduced to msconfig.

Disabled all Startup items and rebooted successfully. Slowly added items back, leaving off all the NVidia stuff (I have a Radeon card and have had for a couple of years). So far, still running happily. I will be getting a new HDD from TigerDirect, which will become the repository for pictures, Word files, etc.

Well I definitely had an interesting few days. Where to start...


Well since my birthday officially fell on a Monday I decided to start my celebrating early on the Saturday just with the people I live with. I decided to cave in a try some "special" brownies. This was my first experience with weed and I'm not a fan of smoking so I opted for this option. Bad idea as we decided to eat the whole batch at once which we figured that we ate about 3 grams of the stuff. The next bad idea was that we wanted to go downtown to eat, which means an hour trip on the bus/subway. We didn't make it downtown. The brownies were so strong that one of my roommates and I vomited while on the subway. My roommate continued to get sick so we headed back home where I struggled the rest of the night to not throw up. I've definitely learned my lesson.

Sunday, I was expecting a good turnout to go to the Clutch concert but since most of the people in my house were recovering from the other day, they didn't show up. Then many of my friends that I invited changed their minds because they realized that they couldn't afford it. So, in the end it just ended up being 4 of us. The concert wasn't amazing, though Clutch and Murder by Death were really good. The opening band was horrible though, all they did was hurt my ears with their excessive use of feedback.

Monday, was my actual birthday and I decided to celebrate by not going to class. I did end up going to work though because I figured that since I work at a restaurant, I'd get free food. It was really easy day too, not very busy at all. I actually managed to go on my break an hour early. Of course, I got pied in the face before that break though, but I expected that to happen.

Then, closing time happened and I was just about finished, I had probably 15 minutes left of work to do. As I was cleaning the floors, I saw a knife on the floor and I bent over to pick it up. As I stood up, I smacked my head against the bottom of this large, metal fire extinguisher we have in the dish pit. The bottom of it has a thick rim and it ended up splitting my head open. This happened just before my manager comes back and asks me what beer I want because he was going to buy one for me. He sees me rubbing my head and kinda laughs because he's smacked his head against the fire extinguisher too. I then look at my hands and see them covered in blood. Great.

So, one of my co-workers drove me to the nearby hospital where I ended up waiting 7 hours before the doctor could put 9 stitches in my head. Hooray Canadian Health System! Here's a little picture of the aftermath (still bandaged up so it's not gruesome or anything):

Having our first snow of the winter here in E. Tennessee. (Yeah, yeah. I know- it's almost March). So we have daffodils sticking out of the snow. Headed out to work because the road in front of the house looked good. It was a trick. The "main" road was much worse- even with 4WD, I wiggled and slid. Decided it was a great day to drink hot chocolate and stay home.

On the geek front, I got myself a new toy... It is a USB drive adapter that allows me to hook up any kind of IDE or SATA drive and do file transfer via USB 2.0. The thing is, I don't have to open up the host computer and fool with IDE and power cables. I love things like that.

Ouch. I've hit my head before, but I've only once needed stiches and that was a pain.
But you know, the waiting isn't so bad; would you rather wait 4 hours and have a 1000$ bill?

Well that is one nice bandage, Mallet... battle damage from the duel with the dreaded extinguisher? Also, ouch to brownie overload, lousy opening bands and healthcare in Toronto.

Anyway. Surreal days. Today, those 2 colleagues opened it with a very heated exchange of proverbs, all over some guy who returned a laptop which proved too costly to him [I guess 20 euros do make a difference to some people... me, for one]. So I thought the day was going to be lousy and poisoned after that & 2nd consecutive failure of driver's exam of our main serviceman [doesn't have the license yet], who was pissed all day afterward... surprisingly, both atmosphere and music became laid-back, as the work wasn't as cumbersome as yesterday. I guess sun and warm weather in February do make a difference sometimes.

I'm alright for now. What did I forget? Oh yeah. Welcome to Chorrol forums, LadySaira. Coffee is free, as well as brownies [regular ones, sadly].

Yea, I wouldn't like paying $1000 for stitches. But I could do without the 7 hours of waiting. I know it would be better if our doctor situation wasn't as terrible as it is right now. Still, I could deal with 3 hours... it was the extra 4 that were excruciating.

Ouch. Bad luck hitting you're head but at least you didn't fall on the knife... Still seven hours is a long wait when you feel grotty, in fact thats a really long time.

And that is quite a bandage, I can just feel how much you like fire extingishers now.

Well I return to active work duty later today. I think I'll spend most of it glaring at the thing that injured me.

And I think I'll also be eating up all the sympathy my fellow employees will give me. Hehe.

So I heard on the radio that Gary Gygax had died. That may not mean much to most of us, but I imagine Ibis and a few others will realize why that is significant to a group of RPG folk. Gary was one of the original developers of D&D. I spent many a late night with my friends playing this amazing game that didn't require a board or cards or even a fixed set of rules. If there was no D&D, I daresay there would have been no Elder Scrolls. Godspeed, Gary- enjoy your adventures beyond the Prime Material Plane.

Hear hear. I agree with Trey a great man has passed beyond the mortal plane now to adventures unkown. As Trey have I too have spent countless hours playing D&D with my friends..

On a lighter note I have recently recieve new inspiration, that will hopefully continue to drive my various fanfics forward (I might get an update or two during the weekend). cheers.

Yesterday I bought a bike. I just wanted something cheap that'll get me from house to work cheaply and in short time, but family advised me to get something sturdy, strong, with Shimano gear on it. So, I ended up paying around 90 euros for this friggin' huge 18-speeder... bike looks awesome and, although I still dislike metal mudguards around wheels, it kicks boat.

Main problems now are: 1. Where the heck am I going to keep it? [it's temporarily in sister's old room]; 2. How the hell am I going to get in shape fast? Yesterday I drove it for 20 minutes and I came home sweating, barely breathing. That didn't help my mood much. -_-

Speaking of mood and condition... I 'wake up' at odd, early hours, like 5AM. My mouth is completely dry and I have no wish to get out of bed [thank goodness it's Sunday]. I barely have any wish to talk to people anymore and, while it doesn't show, it can be felt. Family pressures me to eat more and more, as if that could help anything, and I refuse all the time. Food alone doesn't solve anything.

In any case, I'm off to pump up bike's tires and go search the flea market for decent locks [for the bike]. Cheers.

@V: meh, Treyman, my mellon's hard as a rock, as anyone will tell you... but even if it cracks, meh.

Actually, the bike may be the best thing for your current state. Even though doing much riding is a strain right now- you will get better at it. Exercise that actually has a goal beyond- "so I'm not out of shape" is far more beneficial. If a "side-effect" of riding is that you get in better shape, so much the better- but meanwhile, you have reached a destination (literally). And, when you are riding, you can be alone without being "anti-social". Get a crate for your melon (riding helmet). I know they can look a little silly, but not as silly as lying on the pavement with a cracked... well, you get the picture.

Oh that is so nice Mil that you got a good bicycle. We have one each here in Florida. Mine is purple and Cain's is blue. But he wishes now that he'd bought a mountain bike, which your's sounds like or similar to. Another benefit to bike riding besides the ones that Treydoggie mentioned is that biking gets you out into the sunshine and sunshine causes your skin to create Vitamin C and this helps lift your mood. That's one reason why going out and getting a breath of fresh air makes you feel so good. That and the actual fresh air you are breathing in to improve your respiratory system.

LOL clean air, sunshine, vitamine C and breathing... oh well. You should be here to understand, I guess.

In any case, Diazepam helps. I sleep without dreams and, although I am groggy in the morning, it helps. What doesn't help is feeling of being able to do nothing about anything. Here's a fine example:

I have flat-rate internet right now, and means to pay for it, as well as part of [very] increased power bill. In spite of all that, my father, who can't grasp the meaning of 'flat rate' orders me not to leave my PC on while I am at work, even with monitor turned off.

So, few days ago, he notices a report on FreeRice in morning news, while we're both having breakfast. "Why don't you do that?", he asks, and I look at him dully. "I have tried it, I have tried Folding@Home [even with 3-4 hours of PC activity during the day on my crappy machine], I have tried loads of things, but it just doesn't do anything. I can't help anything or anyone, since this is all a farce. We can't feed the world or find the cure for cancer, or at least I can't. Just drop it". He then gets agitated and demands that I try to do it every day. I just nod and don't even think about it, or about people who are wealthy enough to buy off the damn rice, as well as those entire countries.

So yeah, boneheads will be boneheads. I am really happy about my gene pool.

Then again, Alex might be right. All it takes for evil to triumph is for good men to stop giving a ****.


edit: There was this event that made me giggle all the way from flea market [where I went today], and I just gotta share it with you.

So I went down to look for several things - a decent pocket knife that doesn't cots much [found it - it's a beautiful John-Benzen Tools knife, costs 3.50E ], a decent flashlight [only found some cheap chinese crap] and some summer wear [overpriced junk, got to search more thoroughly next week]. On my way back, while I'm unlocking my bike from market's fence, I hear a voice out of nowhere and turn my eyes toward it, to see this 60-something old geezer talking to me trough the fence, from his improvised stand:

GEEZER: Hello there lad, I got all you need, Seka Aleksic, Sasa Matic, porno DVD's, take your pick!
ME: [supressing the urge to burst into laughter] Paps, what makes you think I'm a fan of those 2, or porn?
GEEZER: Ah, but porn is good for you, it rejuvenates and lifts you up when you're down.
ME: [completed unlocking the bike & wrapping the chain around it] Umm, no. That's love. Love rejuvenates you and lifts you up when you're down... besides, I'm 30 years old and I've given up on both porn or love.
GEEZER: Oh well, okay.
ME: No problem, you had to try... [at this point I can't stop grinning, but still I am not laughing like a maniac]

My dad is dying, he's in hospital now, his kidneys have stopped working and he's had a few heart-attacks the last days. The doctor told my brother they're not reviving him if his heart stops....And I'm sitting here 350km away unable to do a damn thing....

Life certainly is not good at the moment...

I'm really sorry to hear that Minque. I hope you manage ok.

Try and take care of yourself...

I'm so sorry to hear that Minque, I wish you all the best in the coming time.