Welcome back Tellie, glad to see you back in our ranks.

As for me, I've spent this weekend back at home for my father's 50th birthday party and I also got to watch some MMA fights with some of my friends whom I haven't seen since the end of summer holidays. It's amusing to see a bunch of drunk adults I must admit. I especially enjoyed making money off of them via driving them home.

Now, I gotta get back to Toronto and do some English homework But that won't be until 8:30...

Well, the guy wasn't avoiding me; he was just out of town.

Still waiting....

Bloody ARCANUM, being addictive like... eh, addictive videogames I completely screwed up, my Tech scale is all the way down to 99 and mages attack me on sight. LOL. Too bad they can't scratch my new armor and my... raygun.

Cash Cab is the greatest show ever.

"What song off of the School House of Rock was about words like and, but, or or?"

XD

My day was guuud.

I have a bastuurd mosquito hidden somewhere in my room, I just know it. My legs, arms and entire body ends up, night after night, filled with bite marks which are pure suffering when I walk to get groceries. I hate allergy.

[and there is nothing honorable about damn mosquitos!]


edit: I killed the bugger. Yay for uninterrupted sleep and no allergies.

Yay, Mil vanquished his nemesis!



We in Florida know how pesky those mosquitoes can be. At 7/11 we have swarms of male mosquitoes. They don't bite .. thank god, we'd have no customers; but they do swarm around the people's heads when they come walking up to the door. Luckily the cool weather seems to have killed them off.



Now we have love bugs .. won't even tell you about them.

Yeah, I'm exhausted.

Today was pretty so-so. I sat alone during lunch any no one seemed to care. Bah.

At least I have friends at the votech....

I got tired of being insulted by the people I sat with during lunch. :/

Trouble never comes alone. Seems my throat is acting up again [although it isn't cold at all... yet] and I had to get STREPSILS because I ****ing hate going to doctors for medicine. Bureaucracy is the main reason, my hatred toward men in white is just bonus.

Now would not be a good time to mention my... oh, nevermind.

I want to shank the white surpremicist gang we have here... those retards have kept us staying in 15 minutes through lunch so they don't cause fights. The hilarious part? They were shorts, cowboy boots, cowboy hats, and those cowboy shirts. Epik lulz.

Otherwise my day was good. But those bastards...

...your world domination plan, via '08 Presidential Campaign?...

...oh snap my damn mouth. Now I have to be assassinated.

That sounds more like a damn Greek tragedy, I mean - they way they dress.

...
Beside the ominous chicken soup [from ominous chickens, DUH!] which I'll vote for tomorrow, I'm going to get heavy duty penicillin capsules. Screw herbal remedies, Pentrexil is the real thing.

They held all of us in. Because of a few morons.

Stupid school. They should have suspended them a long time before they decided hurting black people was cool.

Hopefully this doesn't build a prejudice against people who wear cowboy hats... I like wearing em you see. But by no means do I think I'm a white supremest. I just think I look cool in my hat. I don't even like country music either!

Well my day is crap. Not only do I have the honor of being prime-time target for pap and his fits, I feel like my head will explode and my throat is being sandpapered. Insult to injury, I went to this uber-cute and sexy young female doctor in my runny-nose/look-like-crap mode and that did more wonders for my self-esteem... oh well.

Now I get penicillin caps for 5-6 days, C vitamin and more crap from parents. Yummm. I can't even look at the screen without my head starting to ache.

Man, not even in Texas have I seen kids like that (well, imbeciles yes, but cowboy clothes, no). Some people in other countries think most of us americans are still cowbys (accents, customs, etc.) blame old westerns, dang mis-informing pieces of crap.....

Just wait until your finished school and have escaped into the real world.




...then those morons will be your boss or more likely HR manager.

.... or at least the president of your college student body.

Or they could fail to make it far in life and turn into good-for-nothing lay-about employees of yours...... or end up doing less paying work.

Or one of my clients when I'm a clinical psychologist.


Yeeeep, that would be awkward.

Woo! I'm going to another metal concert tomorrow. Know what that means? I'm not going to my annoying English class! Yippy!

It wouldn't be bad if our teacher didn't sound like a female version of William Shatner. So many awkward pauses, it gets so annoying! Plus, how can you take the person seriously when they can't even get to class on time on a frequent basis?

Brufen[Ibuprofen] had saved my boat and head today.

After 72 hours of frequent head-splitting pain, mild to moderate fever and tremendous fatigue from sleeplesness, I've said 'screw it' and replaces Aspirin with Brufen. One hour after taking it I literally passed out on my bed, covered in 4 blankets, and when I woke up I was swimming in own sweat. It did me good though - no fever right now and my head hurts a lot less, just enough for me to even consider typing this post.

I'm expecting more fever in the evening/night and several more days of this torment, though. In the meantime, please don't hug me - I am 100% contagious.

Ahhh, I´ll gladly hug you anyway Mil! Contagion never bite me so it´s safe,.....besides, I think you´ll feel better after a big fat hug!!!

Indeed .. have a hug from Florida too. Contagion can't swim the ocean, can it?

I'll give you a pat on the back, from Texas. And no, I doubt that even the most contagious disease can cross the Earth through the internet.

Aw, you guys. I can only thank for all the wub; sadly, delicious tuna [in a can] also can't swim over ocean.
Now, back to steamin' herbal tea.

Hehe, I went to a concert last night and my ears still feel funny from just the volume of what they had. It was a pretty good show as the headlining band definitely proved why they deserved to headline and the one opening band actually shocked me with how well they played. I found it amusing how my friend I brought liked that opening band the least because they had a bit more of a rock influence in their music. That just goes to show you the versatility of metal folks!

Oh yea! And I also saw someone who could be considered a metal celebrity. The creator of the metal documentary "Metal: A Headbanger's Journey" was at the show. That was a surreal moment for me.

Oh come on, what's the point if you don't have super ebola avian AIDS and can't give it to someone via the internet?

Lemon tea is always good when you're sick, with honey. Those two together are not only yummy but it'll get rid of some of your yuckiness.

The school counted me absent even though I was out on an activity... wtf

Right now, I am talking to my female friend who claims to have been playing role playing games since she was 8 but has never heard of DnD. Though she was always a strange one, she seems to think that being a virgin is the norm for 18 year olds.

In other news, I have a job interview tomorrow to be a park ranger with the Christchurch city council, hopefully at their native wetlands. I am going to bring my bow and cloak and tell them that the reason why I think I would be a good ranger is that I am a wood elf. Not really, but it would be fun. On Friday I went snowboarding in a suit and tie, and brought down a bottle of snow for my friend birthday, it hadn't melted at all by the time I got to the pub.

Good luck on that interview Pisces; I know you love that outdoorsy kind of work. And helping the environment and all that. I won't tell anyone that you had your ears done and that you really ARE a woodelf. It's just that NZ Bosmers are taller than most - actually towering over Summerset Altmers, don't they?



Snowborading in a suit & tie?? And I suppose no one had a camera along for that one either? How funnny - you should have brought champagne too to go with the bottle of snow.

I see nothing wrong with that. Hell I'm 19 and nearly 20 (in February) and I'm still a virgin. I just haven't met the right person yet.

There is nothing wrong with being a virgin, good infact, but she was really suprised to find out that a lot of 18 year olds have had sex before.

Feelin' better today, yippie. I even scrubbed meself from head to toe... only problem is, now my folks are begining to cough. Meh. We'll get more medicine & lemons.

The point is... well, I dunno. I like you too much?

Chamomile or hibiscus + 1 teaspoon of honey + juice from 1/2 lemon = only liquid that's yummy when you're sick when I drink plain water it tastes awful.

Now, back to oddities:

Let me be the 14th person to say "WTF" are they 'challenged'?

• QUOTE(Pisces of the Mountain)
  There is nothing wrong with being a virgin, good infact, but she was really suprised to find out that a lot of 18 year olds have had sex before.

Sounds like she was very sheltered as well as a virgin. I was living a sheltered life until age 20 and then got real culture shock attending the University of New Mexico. I didn't even know there were still Indians. Or that they had cultural problems going on.



Milanius, I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better, dear. Too bad that your folks are now showing symptoms, but hopefully you are now immune and can take care of them if needs be.



You all are right to wait for the right person and time to have your first sexual experience .. it will be magical that way, as it should be.

Thanks Ibis paps is already feeling a bit under the weather; no fever or anything but he coughs and feels fatiqued. He promised he'd go to doctors tomorrow if he feels worse in the morning - knowing how much more he hates doctors [not blaming him, he spent huge portion of life in hospitals, like all of us] that's decent.
Mom already has same capsules I have. I just hope she doesn't get the ****ty end of this.

Now, back to sports:

Yuis, it'll be the most magical 15 4 minutes of bump'N'grind on the backseat of one of their cars

Yes, the school is challenged.

I'm so sore and exhausted... uggghhh. Can't take much more.

Sore? EXAUSTED?! Oh **** no, not you too

*molests Zarrexaij with tea, chicken soup, vitamin C and Soulfly ballads*

In any case I'm getting better, parents are getting worse. Mom, being as stubborn as always, insists that she does at least 50% of food making. Gofungleammit.

so im around still... just dont have internet. it suxorz. i just realized i dont have any more to say.

Nice to see you SS .. too bad that you don't have internet. That must really suck. I don't know how I'd stand it if I couldn't play online games and do forums. Guess I'd read alot of books.

I've been here so long (since may last year) that I don't know what I did (I do, but nothing too major).

Got back from visiting my ex... did the rest of my homework... overall I'm exhausted.

Not to mention I'm broke now. I spent 57 dollars, mostly on gas.

I won't be seeing him as much from now on. He doesn't want to mess up what I have going for a guy who likes me.

How much is 57$ in canudian? Because, eh, all I got is this funny money with ducks on it. <_<

Anyway, GAS - does that mean you got your driver's license, or am I entirely too lost for this time of the day? [again; I only have some 10-12 hours in front of screen to blame] nm, resolved

Anyway, ducks. Oh, if only I could be a bird, with a bird brain, flapping my wings happily, unaware of people trying to make a meal out of me...

Well, currently the Canadian dollar is basically even with the American dollar so right now 57$ Canadian = about 57$ American. Hehe, now it'll be us Canadians coming across the border to buy your cheap wares! Muhahaha!

I wouldn't be surprised if that happened. XD

Or their cheap hoes.

[can't believe I wrote 'hoes' just now >_____> I blame bad influences]


Anyway. More serious note. I can't believe I'm watching neo-nazi movement causing riots and violence in my country, not being properly beaten by the police [which seems indifferent at times, and they do clubbing only when they really need to]. People of Novi Sad city marched yesterday during the anti-fascist gathering, provoked by the announcement that there will be a rally organized by these... blackshirts [thankfully, the city officials banned it]. A group of 50-60 white nationalist, many of them not even citizens of this country, threw stones at the peaceful members of the march. It was only when things escalated beyond anything reasonable that the police took action and began arresting people. Now, everyone who has 1/2 of brain here thinks they would've let nazi bastards grow into 200, 2000, 20.000-strong movement and turn a blind eye to it if there weren't violent action like this; and although our rotten parliament loudly condemns the neo-nazi movement, it only serves as a method of gathering points for nearly all parties there, especially the right wing ones which then seem more docile and tame, and they can say "Oh, well look at those horrible extremists, we're nothing like them" - when in reality, they would gladly have Serbia without gays, Gypsies, junkies and minorities. Smashing.

Where was I going with this? I am sick of past, and I am sick of white nationalists. Patriotism is too often put in the same plane of reasoning with nationalism and ultra-nationalism, and that just won't fly. I am a patriot, and anti-fascist. I am also enraged and ashamed today, not only because this happened, but because people who lead this country here LET IT HAPPEN.

Neo-nazis should be kicked in the nads.

Nope, too good for them. Think much worse, dear, like "How would Sheogorath-Hussein crossbreed on his worst bad day deal with these arses" bad. That's how bad it has to be.


...

Meh, to hell with idiots. I have heard with my sister, for the first time o'er internet with working mic & webcam [she finally figured out what was the right color for microphone, pink one XD]. I am so, so, so, so, so happy now. My parents will hear her and see her at Sunday. That will mean world to them.

For the first time, your English is somewhat broken. Mil, has the sickness affected your ability to type English or something? xD

Sorry, I'm just picking on you. I don't mean to be mean.

What up people? How is this stuff rolling? My spiritual transofmration is continuing at a surprisingly rapid rate though its not quite like I expected, my challenges in life are very unique and atypical. Honestly right now I'm just trying to start my life up and gain some footing without having to cry back to mom every 5 seconds and I get hit in the face with back-to-back-to-back revelations and now I'm seriously considering living in a monsatery for the next few years. And as bizarre as this sounds, it also seems as if life is oushing me into making this decision. Everything I've wanted out of life has stopped coming regularly and my attachment to these things which are now either irregular or non-existent has caused my to go into bouts of depression and confusion. I won't say I'm depressed because I have memories of being depressed, and I feel a hundred times better on a bad day today then back then. I'm just saying the uncertainty is a little hard to bear. I don't know whether I should just screw social norm and do what I want since I'm not getting what I want out of youth anyway or should I stick with my only other option: apply at a new college since there are about 50 reasons why I can't go to this one, make new friends, and continue to feel unfulfilled.

haha, first time?
[and yuis, back in HS I'd probably go and hide myself in shame if some girl was making this much fun out of me - now, my skin is a bit thicker... and I care less ]

...
Weather is super-gloomy and wet. Not really ideal for anything but sleeping. Or years-old RPG's with guns.

Perhaps I don't spend enough time in this thread, but I had a bit of a hard time following your line of thought here. But I'll try to make a few comments anyway, in the spirit of chorrol friendship.

I'd love to say that my many years of life have given me some wisdom and insight that would be of use to you, but my age and experience pale in comparison with some of our more distinguished members. However, I will way this: above all else, it is necessary to be true to yourself. When you choose to do something, whether it be to stay in school or to join a monastery, it must be because you want to do it. If you are anything like me (I won't comment on the probability of that), you may find it hard to figure out what you really want from life. In moments of uncertainty, it may be unclear what the best choice is. The best thing to do at these times is to talk to friends, family, etc. and try to discern what you want most from life. If you can figure that out, it will provide a direction and goal for your efforts.

I hope I haven't rambled too much. Perhaps someone wiser than me could provide more insightful advice.

doomie,

mplantinga has given you some good advice and I will try to add. Leave all your options open and try to let the best things happen for you. Decisions are often just leaving things clear to letting life happen as it should.

Your talk of a monestary reminds me of a friend of ours here in florida who is into Budhism. He took a trip to India once, not knowing if he'd come back. He did return, very enlightened and is still involved with a temple here. Your choice of a new college might be a good one; but remember that much of the problems you are experiencing now might follow you there.

Problems need to be confronted and solved, moving to avoid them rarely works. You are still the same person no matter where you go.