Good luck with the puter and the cold, Rider

Yes, hope you get feeling better soon!

Yeah. It's complicated, though.

Anxiety is fear. It's sub-conscious and hard to control. If you have social anxiety you may genuinely feel sick at the thought of talking to someone, particularly a stranger. Social encounters will enact a fight or flight response; your body is hard wired to believe social encounters with all but a few people you trust are dangerous.

Social awkwardness is just not knowing how to deal with social interactions well. It causes you to say stupid things or stutter. Often social awkwardness is just really mild social anxiety.

It's different for everyone though. Some people are extroverted but have serious social anxiety, others are introverted but with brilliant social skills.

Source: diagnosed with anxiety

Going to th U.S tomorrow!! Can't wait.

* taps foot * Still waiting for Impy to return.

DE - Welcome back!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I will be looking southeast with a huge smile and waving !!!!!!

My childhood house has just been sold

Oh, I am so sorry, Mirocu. I do know how that feels, all your memories are tied there. Take a bunch of pictures before furniture starts being moved, and save them to remember how it was by.

I´ve already taken pictures but I´ll take some more. I really am one of those people who have trouble letting go of things, no matter how inevitable it is.


Let´s see if some Ashens can cheer me up

Well, when it comes to sentimental things, I have trouble giving them up too; and there is nothing more sentimental than a home you either grew up in or watched your children grow up in. Every where you look are memories. It isn't easy to sell your family home for anyone.

I hope you find a new home that brings new wonderful memories for you.

Thanks, mALX. I know you understand me and it helps


I have taken some more pictures now but it´s hard to get them how I want since the camera is crap compared to the human eye. I might show some here later, if only for my own sake.

So I just came out to my mum which went well...

I knew she'd be supportive and all but I'm really happy with how well she took it and how understanding she was..

Sounds like you prefer your own locker room, Vital. I´m glad I don´t but as always, to each his own...



But how´s your driving coming along? What´s your running-over tally thus far?

Well... No one's dead yet so I must be doing something right.... right?

Nah, I've actually only done a little bit. My mum works pretty long hours and I'm also busy with school and whatnot so I don't get too many opportunities to drive. Usually just go around quiet suburb streets which is usually pretty easy, but I did nearly hit a kid from my year at school once. which would've been....

Good, I'm glad too, for your sake. I know how miserable people are when they deny who they are in order to fit in with what society thinks they should be. I've a little taste of that as a deaf person in a hearing world - I get treated as a dumb, arrogant b**ch until I open my mouth and initiate a conversation, then it's enlightenment time. Sometimes. Every once in a while I get someone who asks to speak to someone else. I've learned to let that slide and give that person someone else if that's possible, and remove myself from the situation. The problem lies with the other person, not with me.

But life is so much easier when you're honest with yourself AND people accept you for what you are as well as who you are.

Thanks, HER.

Empathy is sorely lacking in so many parts of society, whereas ignorance is widespread. Many of the people around me, even some of my friends, make homophobic comments without realising how much that hurts me (and others). If they knew about my sexuality I am certain most of them wouldn't continue to make these comments, but society has taught people to make certain assumptions about everyone and often people act without thinking...

Congrats, Vital. It is a hard step to take, but worth it for your future. Really glad it worked out well for you!

Hey, y'all!

Just thought I'd drop by and hang out for a bit. I figured that it's been a while, might as well update.

We moved in with my husband's in-laws and it's awful. But we are grateful to not be starving and to not have to pay rent.

I switched jobs and lost my new job due to having a anxiety attack at work.

Snuggles was evaluated for Autism and has a full evaluation on May 7th. Since both his father and I are on the ASD spectrum, we knew it was coming.

I run my own website, not for just ES but for all sorts of fandoms. It sucks because everyone on it randomly left, but whatever. I'm branching out.

I dyed my hair purple. It looks pink, but it's the shade Snuggles likes and asked for, so I did it.

I tried building up my skills to become a freelance writer. I took on a ghostwriting job as an erotica writer but it just depressed me because the woman I was ghostwriting for was a terrible writer. Just awful. And it was for five bucks so it wasn't even worth the depression. So I quit ghostwriting for a bit and am now working on building my skillset in areas I lack in.

I also changed my phone number, which, for me, is a big deal because I do not like change.

My mother divorced her alcoholic and abusive husband.

I also have real-life friends now. That I can get up and go see. Due to my crippling anxiety, I don't see them much.

Anyways, hey!

EDIT: The PMs are censored and I don't like that, so if you'd like to talk to me, email me.

You have been missed

This can't be good.

Turns out someone thought that I was talking about them behind their back and that they think that was why old friends stopped talking for quite some time apparently.

Not a lick of it is true, as you know....but it is interesting to see the truths that come about in times of....wheels turning.

Blame. It's a hell of a drug.

Now that true colors have finally bled, I sleep much better at night.

Okay, second to last post.

Ta.

Liz, good to see you back! Sorry to hear about some of the not so good stuff that has befallen you and your family, but glad to hear that you’re getting by. Also good to know that you’re still pursing your writing. Purple hair is nice, but more importantly, Snuggles likes it!

Always nice to see ya here, Liz

Hey Liz, been a while.

Congrats, Vital. I’m glad it went well with your mom. Also glad you missed that kid from school (with your car)!

Welcome back, Liz!

Thanks for the welcome. I probably won't be chatting much, just updating the fic once in a while.

It's actually been a year ago since I left. I was looking over some old messages on the original reason why I left and wow. Nearly to the day.

I think it´s nice to even see the odd post from you, Liz


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This day has not even reached midday but things have happened, good things!

We might get an old garage we will use as a workshop in which to store chainsaws, the ATV etc instead of buying a new one for much, much more money. We might also get a smaller shed for shovels and such things. Plus, my parents might get a new place to live, it´s a house but it´s rental and it´s not expensive for what they get.

All this from the same guy!

That’s fantastic news, mirocu!

All I need now is a well-payed job with low demands on me or a really good lottery ticket

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) *Sniff* You are missed.

Sounds great, Mirocu!







I thought Taylor Swift would be supporting you with her income!


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She said she was gonna transfer some but I haven´t seen it..

You should have placed your faith in Kobby's butt instead of beauty! BWAAHAAA!!!!


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(Bazinga)

** In case anyone is trying to email me, my email server has been down for several hours - the error message says they are upgrading the server, really don't know how long that takes. Not sure if when it comes up I'll get any missed emails or not, if anyone knows how that works? In the case that emails need to be resent; I'll post when it comes back up.

You shouldn't lose anything.

The upstream server that's trying to pass the mail on will retry when it re-appears, I don't recall if the standard is for the Mail Transfer Agents (MTA's) to ask the neighbors if they have any mail, or just take it when it's offered. I think it may be the former, as your mail client then looks just like any other MTA in that respect.

Thanks Ghastley! I don't know if I got all my mail or not, but it is working again; and there was mail in the box when it started working.

When you send someone an email, here is what happens:

- your email program sends the message to your ISP's SMTP server
- Your ISP's SMTP server tries to open a connection to the target SMTP server that is responsible for delivering emails for the domain contained in the email address (It gets the network address of that server from a special request to the domain name service, type MX for Mail eXchange)
- If that server is available, it will deliver the email to the target user's inbox on the server, from whence it can be fetched via an IMAP or POP3 server
- If that server is NOT available, it depends: if it's simply not reachable, further attempts will be made after an amount of time has passed which depends on configuration. If the email server is there but indicates an error, it depends on the error code: if the code indicates a temporary error, further attempts will be made later on. If the error indicates a permanent condition (no such user, address is blacklisted etc) then the delivery will fail

Hope that sheds some light on the matter.

Thanks Starge! Truthfully, I can't tell if I lost any mail or not during the couple hours it was down, but no one has complained so far, lol. Thank you so much!

In about 12 hours, I will officially be a published author on Amazon, lol

WOO HOO !!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT !!!!!!!!!!! Congrats !!!!

Oh my gosh, that's great! Congratulations!!

Will you post a link to it for us here?

Cool, Liz!

What you write about?

Here's a link

Expect it to run like my fanfiction. Messy at first, but the details come out better the further I go along.

I tried to price it at 99 cents, but the lowest they would let me go was $2.99. I did enroll it for the promotional thing where they push the book and lower the price and offer it for free occasionally.

Looks great! Is it possible to put an excerpt on your Amazon page, sort of as a teaser, or show a page preview from the book so people get a taste of your writing style? I’ve never published anything, I’m just thinking of things that might draw a reader in.

Very exciting, Liz!

Congrats, Liz!

Grits's suggestions are good ones. With all the e-books on the Amazon marketplace, you need some way to make it stand out above the crowd. Of course you don't want to give away too much, but posting some scene on the book's page can lure buyers in.

It's a great way to get a feel for where you fit in the market, pricing the book as low as you can go and seeing how well it does.

I'm still trying to navigate the site. I literally wrote the book, edited it a bit, upped the word count, then published it.

Liz, your little write up sounds neat about the falcon girl. It says '20 pages' I think - to me that implies a word count of 8-10K?

Nope. Under 4,000 words.

I am a little late because I tend to ignore this topic. Congrats Liz!