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Chapter 196: Revelations From AkatoshAs Arbiter Malan would have all the mysteries. They bond to the soul, Amiela's would still carry them. Why would he need mine? Malan had spoken in rage, but was it truth? Before he turned away I caught his expression, and instinctively knew he'd said more than he wanted me to know. What could it mean?
He couldn’t have lied, he had to be an Arbiter. How else could he have taught me my husband's mysteries, or even known which they were? True, he didn't give the sacred teachings for them, but since he still owed me three mysteries he could have been holding them out to teach later.
Suddenly there was a loud rushing sound in my ears drowning out every thought and making everything seem to be moving in slowed motion. The void, that was how Akatosh brought warnings!
Within seconds an image flashed in my mind, the inside of some kind of prison cell. A man shackled against the wall was clasping Malan’s raised hand to vow. Malan was kissing him on the mouth violently, ramming his head back and pressing him solidly against the wall with his massive body. I couldn’t see the other man at all...didn't want to, but somehow I knew he was naked and that Malan’s loincloth was pressed hard against the prisoner's naked privates.
Dear gods, was Malan mating with men? Is that what Akatosh was warning me? Malan mated with his prisoners? Ew! He couldn't have tried that with Fathis, or Malan would have been speaking in falsetto like Ocato. I'd have noticed that.
What could it mean? It couldn't be something I'd seen before, surely Malan wouldn't mate a prisoner in front of me...but somehow it did feel like a memory just out of reach. Where would I have seen anything like that? When could I have?
My left wrist suddenly had an excruciating pain. When I held it up to look at it there was a flash image of it ravaged and bloody. That image and the pain both disappeared instantly, and it was normal again.
That injury happened when Malan was bringing me to Theryon the first time, he said his bird's talons did it carrying me.
There was another flash of a vision, this one I remembered. It was waking from a nightmare about dogs attacking me just hours before Malan took my virginity. I'd sat up screaming and looking at that wrist, feeling my neck.
***What could all that mean? Dear gods, why couldn’t Akatosh just tell me what to think instead of making me figure everything out? Has he never looked at my school records? I can't solve puzzles and riddles in dire circumstances! What kind of god doesn't just say the warning? He sure managed to go into explicit detail with Uriel over my vow to him...
The rushing sound of the void was suddenly filled with a mighty roaring, as if a terrible beast was enraged. Beside my ear was a clicking of what sounded like a claw and then something smote me on the head the same way S'Jirra used to duff me when she wanted me to think. Wait, was Akatosh trying to tell me to think harder about the vision he gave me?
I looked up from staring at my wrist to find Malan watching me so intensely that I don’t think he even realized I was looking at him yet. His eyes and aura gave off fear. Why fear? He must have read my mind and realized I was getting too close to knowing something he didn't want me to. Dear gods, had I really seen him doing that?
Baurus’s words suddenly struck me with sickening clarity. That hideous Elf wanting something from Gils, kissing him violently in Owyn's office. Baurus said Gils' head had been rammed back the same way. Malan must have been the repulsively ugly Elf Baurus saw molesting Gils!
Malan was obviously a man chaser, and both my husbands were prime bait being Dunmer with mysteries. No wonder Gils ran off with Renault, to escape Malan's attentions!
Another terrible roar echoed in the howling wind of the void, then the void receded abruptly.
***Malan was staring hard at me, and I tried but I couldn‘t wipe the rage and fear from my face. Sucking it up wasn’t working, not when my worst fears about him hadn't even scratched the surface of what was being confirmed. He reached out his hand and tried to stroke my arm and I all but smacked it away.
“What's wrong now? You’re going to make yourself ill getting this upset, Maxical. Let me heal you…” He reached for Fathis’s ring, but I yanked my hand back and tucked it deep into the pocket of Eyja’s dress.
“No Malan. No more tricks, you‘ve lost my trust. I don’t fall for your cons anymore. You aren’t supposed to harm a chosen, remember? You tried to kill me, and I know you plan to put me in your dungeons. Oh; and I know what you've been doing with your prisoners."
“You’ve got me wrong, Maxical.”
“No I don’t. I've seen past your charms to the real Dagoth-Malan now. How DARE you take me from Fathis who loves me just to use me as some diversionary tactic! If it was never me you wanted, then I want my husband back so I‘m not left unprotected. Give me Fathis back and we part ways."
"You vowed never to see him again, remember?"
"Yes, but since everything you said to me was lies I need proof that YOUR end of that vow is being kept. Remember, Fathis was supposed to be released with his soul safely intact or I destroy Amiela. Break that vow to me and by Akatosh I'll ensure Amiela never makes it to the throne by your side like you promised her. This is no bluff."
“I have to keep that promise to her, Maxical. A vow to a chosen is sacred."
***As if it were an extension of my own anger, Malan's nature roused inside me like a savage beast suddenly. I felt singed by its rage as it leaped hard into battle against Malan. I could feel the weight of it crushing Malan to the floor with the brunt force of its balance. It all but released me, I was barely pinned now.
“I’m your chosen, Malan. That vow you made to me not to harm Fathis is the one that is sacred. Remember, you made it after placing your nature in me.”
“She was always my chosen, still is. Your poaching trick can't change my heart...never will.” He was almost strangling from the crushing force of the nature, his breathing was so ragged I could barely understand him.
The nature obviously did, it answered him through me. I was naught but a spectator in the argument between them.
“No Malan. I'll prove it. The reason you removed her was because your own nature was protecting our union against her. Poaching trick or not, when you put your nature inside me I became your chosen because your nature didn't consider Amiela anything anymore. Your vow to me is the sacred one."
"We had no union to protect, that was YOU trying to keep Dagoth-Malan for yourself!" He rolled onto his back panting heavily.
"That wasn't me, it was your nature striving to create the union your poaching trick robbed it of. The nature gives but one chosen at a time. You petitioned your nature for a chosen the night Vicente attacked me. She was dead or you couldn't have done that, nor put your nature inside me."
"NO! It was her I petitioned for! She was inside you, that's why the nature let me put it inside you!" Malan forced out in gasps, then choked off into heaving panting breaths.
"You removed her, remember? Your promise was made to me alone. And you couldn't petition your nature for Amiela because it draws the souls for your chosen from those marked for you in the Dreamsleeve. Your necromancy kept Amiela from ever being selected again, she wasn't where your nature could reach her locked away in that black soul gem for a century. You should have trusted your nature to bring her back to you, it would have. It knows the deepest desires of your heart, Malan."
***Malan's head rolled toward me gaping like a fish, either from trying to breathe or finally beginning to realize it was his own nature talking to him. I couldn't tell which.
"Amiela is the chosen, Hassildor followed her just as I planned she would."
"How much of your secrets did you teach Movarth Piquine, Malan? Centuries as your assistant he probably learned a lot of your plotting and manipulation. Maybe Hassildor followed me because of one of his plots instead of yours."
"LIAR!" He glared at me, the hatred and venom in his eyes filled his tone even through the panting breaths it took to get the word out.
"Then explain why YOU couldn't find the soul for five years when Piquine hid it? It was by accident you found her, had you not been farming children at the orphanage that night you might never have, and it but miles from Theryon!"
"GRAAAAAHGHR!" Malan roared and gnashed his teeth. For a minute I thought he may die from lack of air his breathing was so strangled.
"You need more proof? The chosen takes the bloodlust away. Janus doesn't have it anymore, but you still had the bloodlust every minute of the time Amiela was inside me. If she was your chosen still, you'd have no bloodlust; it would be gone. I'd bet you still have it now, you wouldn't have lost it this soon after my poaching trick."
With Malan's nature guiding my hand I reached inside my pocket and pulled out the vial of my virgin blood, popping the cork and tipping a drop of blood onto my fingertip. I reached my arm out so the fingertip was almost under his nose. .
"Smell that Malan. If Amiela was your chosen it couldn't be driving the madness in you now."
"STOP! Put the cork back in!" Desperation in his voice made a lie of the words, and his fangs had fully extended and were already dripping rivulets of wine colored juices.
"This is the last virgin blood you tasted, Malan. My blood, not Amiela's. This is the blood your nature holds sacred now. Your nature wants you to make a shrine to the sacred chosen with it before it is all gone, this is the blood you should be honoring now."
***"I'll never make a shrine to you! I'd spill yours on the ground first!"
"Would you then?" I touched the dot of blood on my finger to his lip, then withdrew my arm quickly and watched him struggle with himself to keep from tasting it.
"ARGH! This is torture! Cork that...give me that bottle!"
"Oh no, Malan. You might spill my sacred blood on the ground." I tipped another drop on my finger and wiped it on his lip, quickly withdrawing my arm before he could grab it.
"Damn the drops, give me the bottle! Damn you!"
I kept the bottle uncorked to keep him weakened. "You said your nature won't let you put Amiela back inside me. It's not going to let you kill me, and you can't take it out of me now either. I'll offer you a deal so you can be free of me. Give me Fathis back, and I'll end this chosen for us both. You can go to Amiela wherever she is, and it'll be over between us forever. Is it a deal?"
"[Censored] you! Give me that damn blood!"
"No. The only way I'll give you up is if you give me Fathis back, otherwise you'll never be rid of me.” I wafted the bottle, and for good measure sang a tune in my mind.
So I try to get through to you,
in my own special way,
as the barriers crumble,
at the end of the day.
Do not take for granted,
powers out there,
don't step into the demon's lair.
“ARGH! STOP! I need time to think.”
”You mean plot, don’t you? My eyes are open now, so yours had better be. This is no bluff, Malan. If you lied when you vowed Fathis's soul would be safe and intact, you and your Amiela will spend the rest of your eternities looking over your shoulder; Akatosh and I will hound you till you drop. I won’t put the blade in your back so you don’t know who did it, I want you to know it was me behind it when the time comes.”
With a shock I realized the nature had released me. I scrambled up and ran, all but tumbling down the stairs trying to activate the Recall amulet Hannibal had given me. With a huge sigh of relief I felt the weightlessness just as Malan's bellow roared behind me.
Within seconds I found myself in Uriel's vault. Before the void had even dissipated I popped out of the vault, scaring everyone. Eyja shrieked, Hannibal blanched, and Uriel's face reddened like he may explode.
"Hannibal, you’d better sit down. Mannimarco is here in Cyrodiil"
“Mannimarco!” Hannibal gasped, crumpling in slow motion. His face paled till he was whiter than me. Janus helped him collapse into a chair instead of the floor.
“I told you to sit down…”
“You’re supposed to wait till he does before you finish, Maxical.” Eyja handed a quill and parchment to Uriel, signaling for me to continue.
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