@SubRosa- I have spent a fair amount of time underground, and my feelings have changed… A certain claustrophobia has grown upon me over the last 20 years. But it is hard to go into a cavern and not feel the life of the world around you.
Carnius definitely has agents in the colony- and he seems to know things instantaneously. Darn telegraph stations.
@Acadian- Yes, an earlier version of Athlain would have just seen the mine tunnels as dark and cool. The quest for the Standing Stones has changed him. And I am pleased that he has a personality that comes through. Julian is almost easy to write, because I have such a wonderful guide to follow.
@mALX- I wanted that line to have the impact of a slamming door… We will hear some of Athlain’s thoughts in the next episode. And you are correct- Julian will certainly note that slip and follow it.
Athynae poetry- I was not clear. I love the verse her fans provide- it’s just that I am going to refrain (pun alert!) from inflicting more of my own efforts on my long-suffering audience (for now).
@Destri- Carnius is bad enough in-game- I decided to make him even more overtly evil earlier on. Giving Athlain an opponent who could not simply be “removed” has forced him to use his head- and accept the assistance of others. But yes, if ever anyone was in need of a severe beating, it is Carnius Magius.
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I left the office, believing that Carnius’ words were just more of his usual bluster, this time brought on by fear that he had been caught. His denial did not concern me; we had at last found a witness who could testify to the Company factor’s corruption and criminality. As for Oryn Maren, he had my sympathy; I knew all too well what sort of pressure Carnius could exert. But that was a worry for another day- I returned to the barracks with a light step. A few of the troopers looked at me oddly, and I realized that I was out of uniform. Technically, that meant I should not sleep in a Legion bunk, so I went to the Imperial Cult shrine, instead. My decision had nothing much to do with religion, and everything to do with the fact that the shrine was quiet and warm, with the comforting odors of incense and beeswax to aid in restful contemplation. In other words, if I fell asleep on one of the benches, no one would bother me.
When Jeleen’s recitation of the morning prayer woke me, I went straight to the dock. I was anxious to get to Raven Rock and discover what Falco had decided to do with his prisoner. We made a quick passage through calm waters, and I jumped to the dock without waiting for the gangway to be lowered. I had barely landed when the colony manager hailed me, indicating that I should walk with him. He remained silent until we were well away from the buildings, in a clearing where no one could approach unseen. Before I could ask anything, Falco said abruptly:
“Oryn Maren is dead. Murdered last night.” He gave a humorless laugh and added, “It appears that Carnius has ‘solved’ our theft problem for us. I’m sure he ordered the murder, but I don’t dare accuse him of it without proof. There’s not anything you can do for now, Athlain. And… it might be a good idea if you stayed away from here for a few days. People saw you escorting Maren out of the mine- and now he’s dead. It wouldn’t be hard for them to add two and two and come up with five, especially if Carnius puts his thumb on the scale.”
I understood what Falco meant, and stayed only long enough to retrieve my gear from the dead man’s house. It was odd, the way even that utilitarian structure seemed emptier, as if it somehow knew its lodger wasn’t going to be coming home anymore. That feeling grew upon me, turning into a strange mood, similar to the sort of “waking sleep” I had experienced while completing the Test of Loyalty. Perhaps it was a result of spending the night in the shrine, followed by the news that our best chance to stop Carnius had been foiled. Or perhaps something was drawing me north, even then.
Though I could not stay in Raven Rock, I also could not go back to Fort Frostmoth. Carnius was there, and if I got too close to the Company factor feeling as I did, I could not be responsible for my actions. When I had finished getting into my armor, I noticed Elberoth’s saber standing by itself. The sword gave me an idea of something worthwhile I could do while staying out of the way.
From what little I had heard, the dead captain had been an odd and difficult elf, but he had apparently also been courageous, for all his faults. I had spent enough time on Solstheim to know that the Nords believed a dead warrior rested easier with a weapon near to hand. And Elberoth had done me a service by letting me “borrow” his sword. So even though he was a Bosmer rather than a Nord, it was time I returned the blade to him, so that his final sleep would be more peaceful. Or more combative- whichever his shade preferred.
The work party I had taken to the wreck had buried Elberoth near the shore but above the tide line- it seemed fitting that a ship’s captain should have a view of the sea. As I walked north, the air grew colder and a gusting wind blew snow into my face. I put my head down and hunched my shoulders, recalling the dry, dusty heat of Ald’ruhn with nostalgia. I wouldn’t even have minded a rain-storm, one that turned everything to mud.
Still, the weather kept the wolves and bears at bay, so my trek was uneventful. I discovered the wrecked supply ship by the simple expedient of nearly walking into its side where it lay canted upon the shore. Using the grounded bow as a guide, I walked inland until I reached the low mound of stones that marked Elberoth’s grave. I drove his saber point-down into ground at the head of the grave and muttered:
“May your sword serve you better in death than it did in life. I thank you for the use of it.”
Then, out of consideration for the fact that he was a Bosmer, I twisted a sprig of holly through the hilt of the saber, so that Elberoth would forever rest beneath a green bough.
My self-appointed mission had taken the better part of the day, and now I needed to find shelter if possible. I glanced at the hulk lying on the shore, but did not care for the way it shifted as the waves drove against it. My newfound enjoyment of sailing extended only to well-maintained ships with competent crews; I doubted that I would find any such pleasure on board a drifting, sinking wreck.
I had traversed the coast to the south several times by now, and knew that the only places to get out of the wind and snow were barrows. I might resort to using a tomb if I had to, but I doubted that I would be able to rest inside of one. Even apparently empty burial places seemed filled with whispers and darting shadows; perhaps the vestiges of spirits that had little love for the living and yet seemed to crave our warmth. I would destroy undead when I came upon them, but I was not a crusader who sought them out. That being so, I turned to the north once more, hoping to find an ice-cave or even an isolated dwelling such as Kolfinna’s.
The blowing snow hampered my efforts to locate a suitable shelter, but I still pressed onward, feeling something pulling me north. I had learned to trust those feelings, which may explain why I was not completely surprised to see a tall figure standing on a rocky promontory, staring out to sea. I approached carefully, not certain whether this was a mortal being or some sort of specter or other uncanny creature. When my boot scraped on stone the figure turned haunted eyes to look at me, and I knew it was a Nord- one who appeared to have gazed into the depths of Oblivion itself.
Despite his haggard appearance, the man greeted me in a friendly fashion, saying,
“Hail, stranger. Do you come here to behold the sea? Never will you meet a maiden so beautiful- or so unforgiving. If you would watch with me, I will be glad of the company. Not many folk come this way- the horkers and the cold keep them away. My name is Thormoor Gray-Wave and I once was the captain of the
Havhingsten. But that was before… before that night.”
He fell silent and turned his gaze back to the waves that crashed upon the shore. When I had given him my name, he spoke again, quietly, almost as if to himself:
“A few months ago I was ferrying some settlers from Skyrim to Solstheim. I was tired...so tired.” He clenched his fists spasmodically, and then went on, “I admit my guilt. I fell asleep at the rudder. The ship drifted into a gale, and by the time I woke, it was too late. I couldn't regain control, and the ship capsized.”
He turned to me and searched my face with those haunted, hunted eyes, looking for… something. I had no words of absolution, and knew, in any event that it was not my forgiveness he sought. I silently indicated my understanding and he continued in a hoarse whisper:
“There were only two survivors -- me, and an old man whose entire family was lost in the wreck. He was bringing them here to Solstheim to live with him. We clung to a floating timber and drifted ashore near here. When we were safe, I told him of my terrible failure, and he used his power to punish me. For he was a seer and he cursed me. He said, ‘
Your sleep took from me all that I loved, so I will take from you your ability to rest ever again.’ He cursed me with eternal wakefulness.”
Having had my own share of experiences with troubled sleep, I asked sympathetically,
“You mean- you have not slept- since the night of the wreck?”
Thormoor nodded and told me, “As punishment for my incompetence, the seer laid his curse upon me. I am exhausted, but can't sleep no matter what I try. Potions, magicka, nothing works. Athlain, I haven't slept at all in six months.”
He held out a trembling hand and begged me,
“If you go to the seer, maybe you can convince him to lift the curse? His name is Geilir the Mumbling, and he lives by himself in a dwelling here on Solstheim- an ice-cave. I believe it is nearby, south of here and not too far inland. Do this for me, and I will share with you the most valuable secret I learned when I was a ship captain.”