@haute-Typo found and formatting error and fixed. That I for a bit is one of those
aphasia sorts of things for me. Athlain still remembers his adventure all those years ago and how much better it would have been with some company
. All the bruises from all the practices come in handy once they are faced with a real fight for their lives- at least as long as Athlain remembers
TGIF.
@minque- Always happy to know you are reading. Comments are welcome- but optional.
@McBadgere- If you like the alternating, you will get to see it in ONE post this time. I normally avoid that, but since this is the chapter ender- and it kinda
worked
. (shrug). Sometimes Athlain falls back into his why do you always have to
before he remembers the reason they are there. And for Athynae, it is very personal, given that Hircine made the terrible mistake of taking an interest in her.
@Grits- Although they battled mundane wolves together, this is really the first time the two have gone into a fight with a true unity of purpose. At last, all the years of training and bickering are reaching fruition.
And now for new story. Athynae and Athlain have obtained the Totem of Claw and Fang, which is necessary for some important Skaal ritual, and have left the tomb, with its cargo of (now dead) werewolves. In this post, we will start with Athynae and then switch to Athlain, and finally conclude with Athynae again. I have made typographic breaks to show the transitions, but wanted to mention it up front, as that is not the usual process. But I hope it works for this rare instance. Thanks to everyone for reading.
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I stood at the exit of the tomb breathing deeply of the fresh, cool, untainted air trying to cleanse my nostrils of the putrid stench of werehounds and death. The briny smell of the sea was carried on the breeze and I felt myself drawn to the east, even if it was just for a few moments. I needed to touch the salty sea and let the sound of the water washing the shore do the same to my over-taxed brain. I heard Athlain's steps, but I smelled the horrid stench even before his footfalls registered. He exited the cave with one of the few things that had not changed, that quirky grin that always went with some sort of 'gift'.
Yours I believe. And he dropped my stars in my hand.
You smell like burnt fur. And I started off toward the shore.
Um, Thyna? He stammered a bit and I knew he was going to announce I was going the wrong way. I mean I was
if the right way was to return the totem to Korst, but that wasn't my objective just this moment.
No. I'm not; I'm going to the shore. I need a break from all the do this, go there, kill beasts, and finish this quest all while you're hunting a stupid daedric prince so you can send him back to his own plane of Oblivion.
Athlain's expression was dark and drawn and he was working on the words to go with his thoughts. Thyna, I don't think you should go alone. His body stiffened as if he were waiting for me to punch him or something.
OK. And I rolled my eyes at his innate ability to always say the stupidest things. I wasn't uninviting you; I was just informing you why I was going in a direction other than the one you expected. And I turned away from him once again and started walking toward the clean scent of seawater. I felt as much as I heard when he fell in step behind me. He didn't say anything else and I got the feeling he needed a moment as much as I did. There was too much clouding my mind. I had never had difficulty concentrating and focusing until now. I knew I needed to put all of the 'stuff' that didn't have anything to do with finding and ending Hircine into a box with a latch and possibly a lock since it seemed to keep rearing up at the most inconvenient times.
It wasn't far to the shore but my mind was so distracted that it was like using a potion to travel. Only by the position of the sun could I tell that time had passed. And there it was, the waves, the smell- I don't know why, but I felt a physical response to the sight and smell. My heartbeat slowed and tense muscles relaxed. I got as close to the water as I could without getting saturated and just plopped down and drew my knees to my chest.
Athlain stopped at the tree line and stayed there for uncountable moments as I stared unthinking at the crashing tide. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply of the cleansing air, letting the musical rumbling sound penetrate as far as my mind would allow. As each wave broke upon the shore, I could feel it taking away some of the doubts that cluttered my brain. To keep Athlain safe, to finish all of this, I needed to be like the sea- ever changing, but always the same. Perhaps that sounded impossible, but that had never stopped me before.
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Athynae was right, as she tended to be. I
did smell of burnt fur, and blood and death, and dark places. And if she needed a moment, or a thousand moments, just to breathe the clean sea air and watch the waves- so did I. My life had become one battle after another, an unending series of tasks. I felt as if I had been pulled into the spinning heart of a Dwemer machine, mindlessly repeating actions that had long since lost any purpose or meaning. It was good to simply stop, to be, to stand on that rocky shore watching over the person I
My mind shied away from finishing that thought. Perhaps, if we survived what was still to come, there would be time for such an idea.
Of course, Thyna might look at me as if I was addled. And perhaps I was. But looking at the lowering sun painting her cheek, striking glints from her hair, seeing the lavender wells of her eyes
If I was losing my mind, I did not want it back. For the moment, what I could give her was time
and silence. If we were trapped in the web of prophecy, it could bloody well
wait for just a bit while we caught our breath.
When it became clear that we were going to be there a while, I removed most of my armor, leaving a quilted tunic, leather trousers, and boots. That was sufficient to combat the wind off the sea, and besides, cold had never bothered me all that much. With no conscious thought, I cleaned my armor, noting the places that would need greater attention at a smithy. I also scrubbed my face and arms in a tide pool, accepting the chill sting of the salt water in exchange for removing the odor of smoke and
less pleasant things. During that time, Athynae did not move, simply sat and watched the progression of waves rushing onto the shore and then retreating. When I had decided that my impromptu bath made me fit company once more, I dropped down beside her, keeping
The Gift within easy reach. Just because we had paused to rest did not mean the myriad dangers of Solstheim had done the same.
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I felt it when Athlain started moving toward me and I released my knees and placed my arms behind me to prop myself up on my hands. Athlain landed beside me, having removed some of the stiff pieces of armor that would have hampered his ability to 'plop'. I grinned a bit as I congratulated myself on my preference for leather armor, which did not prevent me from moving as I liked. He had also apparently washed off the smell of dead, burnt fur balls.
Are you alright? The timbre in his voice matched Uncle Trey's so closely I had to look to make sure it was still Athlain.
Just clearing my head. I turned my eyes back to the seascape.
I'm just not accustomed to this side of you. It isn't like you to seem so distracted. Don't get me wrong- I don't think the distraction is affecting your ability any- just that you seem to be... He stopped short when he realized I was staring at him. There's something eating at you and I want you to know that you can talk to me about it. It came out in a rush but I caught it.
I know- I'm not sure how to explain what it is. That was all I could offer because it was true; so much was still hidden from me, and it seemed the list was being added to with each step we took toward the end of Hircine's Hunt. We sat in silence until I asked him,
Do you ever wonder what it would be like to have a simple life, Athlain? To be one of those people that just does their job and goes home, spends time with their family, reading books or playing games without a thought of the dangers they are protected from or fearful of the evil that exists in the world because they've never done anything to draw it to them? They live like their parents and grandparents and life just moves forward quietly, simply. I pulled my hands back to my knees and crossed them to prop my chin.
I cannot remember a single moment, ever, that I wasn't planning or training or fighting or plotting or explaining and right now I'm really not sure how long I can keep going like this. It has just occurred to me that I have never stopped, never slowed down, but now it's like I've gone from riding Lumhara to riding a cliff racer and it is doing nothing but speeding up and I can't slow it down. I can't make it stop. And I think there might be a mountainside ahead.
You'll get used to it. I did. This is what you were born for Thyna; this is what you trained for since you were born. I still question whether I am meant to be here, how sound my judgment is. I think about how many other places I'd rather be and what else I could be doing. But at the end of the day, when I close my eyes, I am exactly where I am because it is where I am supposed to be. And right now I am so thankful that you are where you are supposed to be, too. Again with the Uncle Trey voice, even his face showed the wisdom that brought those thoughts forth and it looked like the perfect blend of Trey and Baria.
I'm sure I will, but right now it's tossing me around a bit more than I am comfortable with. And when did you become so wise- youngster? It was time to lighten the mood; we were going down a road that I didn't want to travel. Not yet anyway. I'm over a year older than you and you're trying to teach me about fate and destiny; how did that happen? I pushed his shoulder and he smiled.
Don't test me on the hand to hand Nay Nay; you might get another lesson from the wise one. He actually looked at me as if he were challenging me.
Oh, you think so? Well, it'll have to wait, because I'm just too tired right now and besides, it's getting ready to be dark so we either need to make camp or run all the way back. I was talking, trying to keep my voice steady while I plotted how to start my attack. One thing I did know was a good wrestling match just for fun would cure a multitude of the symptoms that were plaguing this team. At least that was the way we had once lightened the tensions during particularly trying competitions.
I relaxed and tried to shift my weight unnoticeably and then I leapt, landing on Athlain and pinning him in the mix of rock and sand. So what were you saying about lessons? Athlain didn't squirm- he wasn't fighting for release, just smiling at me like the rat that got the cheese.
I thought you were too tired. As usual, you cheated; now you have me at a disadvantage. My hands had his arms locked above his head by the wrists and I realized he only had on his quilted tunic and trousers and sitting straddle of his torso it registered very profoundly that his once gaunt, stringy mid-section had been replaced, along with the boyish attitude. That was all the thought I had time for because I felt world shift and without realizing how I got there I was flat on my back, having been flipped over his head.
Meanwhile, he was on his feet, in an attack position, knees bent, arms out, ready for the melee. I rose and made an attempt at a foot sweep which he anticipated and jumped like a rope while he shot me a ha.
We stood face to face in almost identical stances, staring beyond each other. I realized then that fighting hand to hand with the one that has been your sparring partner most of your life puts you at a disadvantage because they know all of your tactics. How do you change your technique and surprise them?
He twitched, I reacted,
incorrectly stupid, and once again I was prostrate on the beach. That did it. It was on because he had laid me out twice and that just would not do. I didn't mind him being my equal but, well, I had to answer his point with one of my own. Back in position I lunged forward and we locked arms, pushing against each other. Beneath my palms the muscles of his shoulders rippled and even through the quilting, the once sharp bones were now encased with the toned tight lines of muscles and tendons, solid proof that he had brought
The Gift to bear against far more than a handful of adversaries.
I dipped my left knee and threw him off balance and rammed my shoulder into his chest, sending him backward into the tide. The frigid water rolled over his face and the splash soaked my leathers. The roar that emanated from him was beyond description and he shot out of the water like he'd been launched from a catapult, flying through the air headed straight for me. It was like some mythic sea beast had suddenly risen from the waves. My mind registered it, but for some reason that I cannot explain, my body would not move. I stood, rooted, watching the broad shoulders and muscular arms as they made contact with my midsection. I closed my eyes, waiting for the crash, knowing that all of the air would be pushed from my lungs and cause my head to swim.
But instead, I had the strange sensation of spinning and rather than landing on my back with the weight of another body crashing against me- I was laid, almost gently, atop the quilted tunic and the broad chest beneath it. And the arms that were wrapped tightly around me cradled me rather than grappling. Something happened, a feeling I'd never known; my body was drawn to it, but my instincts reacted differently and I jerked free, gaining my feet. It took great effort not to allow my reaction to proceed and send me fleeing into the darkening forest. The feeling was not fear; it was worse than fear; it was more discomforting than an unfamiliar dark place, and it made my head spin and my nerves fray. I was breathing in short, gasping breaths and my heart was beating wildly.
Athlain stood and faced me, dusting the sand from his clothing, Are you alright? His voice was schooled and sounded calm, but I could tell from the tension in his face that something had happened to him too.
Honestly, I don't know. The voice was mine but it sounded unfamiliar; the tone was off, flat, and I realized the answer was as truthful as anything I had ever uttered. We need to make camp before the light is completely gone.
Athynae, I..., he paused to gather the rest of the thought.
You what? I snapped. You didn't think? You slipped on something? WHAT?! Spit it out. I wanted to know why he had changed the attack. I wanted to know why he had made me feel soft. I wanted to know why he felt like tempered steel instead of
. No, I knew the answer to that; I'd been made fun of for the muscles in my arms most of my life, and it was a good thing no one ever saw my legs.... But
he wasn't supposed to feel like that;
he was supposed to be skinny with sharp elbows and knobby knees; he had changed everything by coming here to this cursed island.
I noticed how dark it was getting and figured we needed to make camp instead of playing games. And he turned toward his pile of armor without another word.
Here Ends Chapter 17