SubRosa- I have to admit being influenced by your own depictions of mysticism as I wrote that passage. It just seemed to me that undertaking a mythic quest should set the protagonist apart in some literal, as well as metaphysical way... In actual game terms, it was just a matter of running too fast for the critters to bother him. The light spell goes back at least as far as my paper and pencil D&D days- "Yes, a light source allows you to see. But it also allows you to be seen."
Captain Hammer- Thank you for reading- and especially for the thoughts about alchemy, which caused me to ruminate and eventually include the first paragraph.
haute- My thanks. Yes, just never could see the value of turning yourself into a beacon for every creature within range...
mALX- I was thinking of a certain Khajiit's own school experiences when I added that- and your descriptions of magic use were a major influence.
Acadian- Thank you so much, my friend. Yes, you caught me at it- keeping Athynae present in the story even when she is not... And that was the other purpose behind noting that the potion was from her, instead of Athlain's own creation.
D.Foxy- Welcome back, vulpine D! Prose we have in plenty here, lyrical and lovely or dark and brooding. Must stop now as I fear I am about to start channeling Corambis from the players scene from Hamlet.
minque- Indeed, Athlain is saved from himself by the reminder that there are more important things in life than revenge. I have an idea about... hmmm, no I will save that spoiler for a better time- assuming I can manage the bit of plotting I want... Some humor (I hope) below, in your honor.
Remko- "Halls of Penumbra" is, of course, in-game. However, I had to look up the definition. It actually does not mean "complete darkness," but rather a shadowed area, such as occurs during a partial eclipse. Rather like "penultimate," which I once discovered to my chagrin, DOES NOT mean "final," but rather "next to last." SubRosa (and Joseph Campbell) could tell you that there are many myths and legends surrounding eclipses.
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But my inability to cast the spell was not an issue, because I had a potion that would provide me with the ability to see in the darkness. When Athynae had come searching for me, she had brought along enough potions and ingredients to stock a respectable apothecary. However, I did not chafe her for being- perhaps excessively- well-prepared, since I had been the beneficiary of her alchemical generosity. In the past, before the skooma, I would have been more than happy to prepare my own potions. But I had spent several months distilling moon sugar with my alchemy apparatus, and I could not convince myself that it was free of all traces of the drug. Beyond that, what had once been a restful occupation had become an experience tainted by shame and regret. I would take up the practice of alchemy again one day- when I felt that I had once more earned the privilege.
Meanwhile, I quietly broke the seal on the vial Athynae had so lovingly filled and sipped the contents. The vision imparted by the potion was disorienting at first- colors were muted and almost indistinguishable- everything appeared in shades of gray. But the lack of color was compensated by the clarity- I could see every crack and curve in the icy walls and floor of the cavern. And it seemed to somehow enhance my hearing as well; I believed I could distinguish the shuffling steps and angry groaning of the undead Nord warriors who guarded this place.
I readied my shield and mace and moved to the left side of the passage, reminding myself that the draugr could sense my presence, too. It was said that the undead could not only smell the blood of the living, but could sense our warmth, as well- and that they hated what they could no longer have. Even as I recalled that bit of lore, movement further down the passage alerted me to my first opponent. The draugr slowly turned in place, head up and eyes glowing red, as if it sought confirmation of an elusive scent.
If I had possessed Father’s skill with a bow, I would have sent arrows out of the darkness to disable or kill the creature. While I might hesitate to attack man or elf from ambush, I felt no such moral nicety in regard to the undead. However I might dispatch one of these unnatural constructs, I was doing the world- and the creature- a favor. And besides, it would allow me to stay as far from the awful thing as possible. But, since I was barely competent at archery, such considerations were largely pointless. I began to run as silently as possible toward the reanimated guardian, and smiled as I heard Carbo’s admonition about battle-cries echo in my head.
At the last moment, the draugr sensed me and turned to face my charge. Rather than trying to check or swerve, I swung my shield in front of me and lowered my left shoulder behind it. I kept my legs moving, driving the creature into the wall. Flesh, even the sinewy flesh of a revenant, is not proof against being crushed between steel and ice. I let the impact push me back, then quickly set my feet and swung the ebony mace in a sidearm blow. The draugr dropped to the cavern floor without a sound, the red light of its eyes fading to darkness.
I dealt with another of the undead at the point where the passage curved to the south, then came to a cross-corridor. I considered the choices before me- I could go left or right, or straight ahead. No markings or tracks provided a clue as to which path was best, and I was about to let Fate decide when I remembered my purpose-
to free the Sun. If I was facing south, as I believed, to my left was the east- the direction of the rising Sun.
After a brief straight stretch, the passage turned sharply south again, and I wondered if I had made the correct choice. But then I realized that a faint glow was coming from the walls of ice. It could not be a reflection, since I carried no light source, so I pressed onward, following the slowly brightening light west and finally north. At last, I saw that the light was coming from behind a wall of ice that blocked the end of the passage. And I saw something else.
A creature such as I had never before heard of stood before the ice wall, a nightmare assemblage of spikes, talons, and tusks. At first glance, it appeared to be a made of stone and ice, risen from the very bones of the cavern. It stood upright, like a man, but the skin looked like a mixture of ice and rock dust, almost as if the very essence of Solstheim had become animate. The light from behind was enough to show that it was overall a bluish-grey, except for the eyes, which glowed with a furnace heat- white-hot.
The GuardianJust for a moment, I wondered why the final battle- or what I devoutly hoped would be the final battle- in these missions always seemed to involve a mobile mountain of teeth, claws, and muscle. Why couldn’t I enter an epic struggle against, say- a kwama forager or a scrib? The bards could always embellish events after the fact; and I would be more than happy to keep quiet about what really happened.... Or maybe, instead of fighting, we could have a pleasant conversation. I could tell the demon about Athynae- he could tell me what it was like to be an evil, cave-dwelling monster. And then he could hand over the light of the Sun and we could part on good terms. Or perhaps not. Even as these whimsical thoughts flitted through my mind, the creature raked the claws of one foot back across the floor, leaving deep gouges in the ice and stone.
The strange mood still held me, and I responded to the aggressive gesture with an elaborate bow, saying,
“Very well, Sir Beast; though we have not been introduced, you may begin the dance. If I don’t know the steps, I imagine I will pick them up quickly enough.”
The guardian made no sound in response, but shook its head from side to side and then charged. My hope that its size and seemingly clumsy physique would make it slow was immediately dispelled. In addition to being horrible to gaze upon, it was horribly fast. It swung its clawed arms wide, as if to embrace me, and thrust its head forward, seeking to impale me with a curving tusk. Almost, I despaired- every part of this beast seemed to be a weapon- and I had only the one shield with which to protect myself. But I ruthlessly stepped on those doubts, for I knew that I had much more; I had been trained by the finest soldier in the finest army Tamriel had ever known.
If your opponent is bigger, use your speed. If he’s faster, use your strength. If he’s bigger AND
faster, use your brains. Don’t let him hit your shield straight on- turn the blow and let the force slide off. Strike where you can- even a light blow with a mace is going to hurt. Go for the elbows, the wrists, the knees. A sharp rap on the top of the shoulder can numb the arm, even if it doesn’t break the bone. Keep moving. Set your feet long enough to get power behind your blow, and then- MOVE. Never give him a stationary target.I did not hear the actual words- I did not need to. Hour upon hour of grueling practice had converted words and concepts into automatic responses, movements executed without thought or hesitation. The beast was stone and ice, but I flowed like water. And water will wear away stone and ice. At times, I felt like a stonemason, chipping away at a great boulder, seeking to shape it to a more pleasing pattern. It did not all go my way- the monster was too strong and possessed too many weapons for me to avoid every attack. But there, too, training came to my aid.
Sure it hurts. That’s Nature’s way of telling you not to get too cocky or do anything stupid. But if it hurts, it means you aren’t dead- yet. If it hurts, it can be healed- as long as you don’t quit and don’t get yourself killed. Dead can’t be healed.When the monster finally fell, I was almost surprised. It seemed like we had been spinning, smashing, and clawing for eternity. I felt no great sense of triumph- the creature had been magnificent in its own way. I looked at the carcass and noted that, even in death, the furnace glow of its eyes had not dimmed. And I recalled a passage from the Story of Aevar:
He plucked the flaming eye from one of the Unholy Beasts and threw it at the ice with all his might. A small crack appeared in the ice, then grew larger. Slowly, the light crept out between the cracks, widening them, splitting the ice wall into pieces. With a deafening crack, the wall crumbled, and the light rushed over Aevar and through the Halls.So I did the same, plucking the glowing orb and throwing it at the ice wall as hard as I could. The ice shattered and the light burst forth, illuminating the cavern as if I stood in the open air under a clear blue sky. I knew that I must return to the Sun Stone to complete the ritual, but first I drew a quick sketch of the dead guardian in my journal. Perhaps Korst would be able to tell me what it was… and whether there were likely to be any more of them around.