@hazmick- My thanks- and there is a bit of business in this latest just for you. (I had part of the interaction already, just added some “flavor,” so to speak).
@Acadian- That notebook was just one of those things- more “Julian as Gibbs” for the
NCIS fans. And I admit to being pleased with the passage you cite- Athlain has grown into his responsibilities. As for Julian, it is very important to me to get her right- and I see her, especially in her younger incarnation, as tough but fair.
@mALX- Thank you so much. You have such a talent for making your characters and their world come to life… so I am pleased to return the favor. And I am glad Athlain’s struggle works, without turning him into
Hamlet- although the wolves turned Rikolfr into cutlets….

Sorry. I have read so much Maxical that my twisted sense of humor is out of control.
@Destri- Exactly right about the exile- which Athlain rather let slip to Julian…. But she is willing to give an honest assessment of his actions. She has not yet decided whether he is guilty of other things, but she will not let him feel guilt for making the right decision.
@SubRosa- You are probably right; the journal must have come from
Kagrenac’s Planbook. Hanging- Korst wanted to show Athlain that the idea of a “noble death” was not necessarily “barbaric”- just that different cultures have different concepts of “noble” versus “disgraceful.” I was kind of also remembering Frankie Pentangeli from
The Godfather. Caenlorn- Yes, another failure of Bethesda’s name generator- although Maenlorn never appears in Bloodmoon. Maybe that is the name for the “spirit-bears?” Thank you for seeing Athlain’s growth- that really is the “Journey of Discovery” in the subtitle. Interesting that you mention
The Vikings. When I was casting about for a name to substitute for Rigmor, the first one I considered was “Einar”- from the Kirk Douglas character in that movie.
@D.Foxy- I guess Bethesda watched the same movies we all did.
@Remko- When Athlain finally put himself in the place of the guilty man, he realized that there was only one choice. And your wish for more is granted.
@Everyone- This one is a bit long, coming in at over 2000 words. I hope that isn’t a problem… Also, I stole a bit of characterization from Cardboard Box- credit where credit is due.
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Seeing a man die that way, knowing that I had been the one to choose his fate, weighed heavily upon me. There was a bitterness to the wind that seemed to find its way to my very core. I ignored Tharsten’s doubtful endorsement of my “wisdom” and began to turn away; to go… somewhere. Before I could decide on a destination, Korst Wind-Eye silently signaled me to attend him, so I followed the shaman to a quiet spot in the lee of one of the houses. He did not try to comfort me, which I appreciated. Instead, he spoke quietly:
“You are still troubled in spirit. But the events of this day are only a part of that. If you will recall, I recommended that, before you began this journey, you take care of any unfinished business. That is still my advice. A great wrong has been done to you, and you will not find peace until you resolve it. I cannot tell you how to proceed- no one can. You are the only one who can decide what must be done. My counsel is that you leave us for a time and find an ending- whether it be forgiveness or vengeance.”
Korst’s words gave me the direction I needed; besides, there were few choices available on Solstheim. The mead hall was the last place I needed to go- one drink would lead to many- and there were no answers at the bottom of a tankard. So I cast the spell that would bring me back to Fort Frostmoth, to some semblance of civilization. I shuddered as I recalled Gaea Artoria asking me if I had “gone native.” Before today, I had been certain of my answer.
At the fort, I spent a quiet night in the barracks, speaking to no one. The troops sensed my dark mood and left me alone, content to wrestle with their own bleak thoughts. I purposely avoided Saenus, who would have tried to break through to me, to find out what troubled my sleep. And I also decided that I had nothing new to report to Gaea. In fact, the only “official business” I conducted besides sleeping in a Legion bunk was to draw a new shield from the armory, leaving my borrowed Nordic one behind.
When dawn came, I ate a sketchy meal and went to the dock, hoping Basks-in-the-Sun was still there. He was about to cast off, and I hailed him, asking where he was bound.
“Raven Rock,” he replied, “then Khuul.” I jumped aboard and handed him some coins before finding a place to huddle in the bow. The shipmaster brought me a cup of tea and one for himself as well, brewed on a small burner near the cabin. We drank it in silence, watching the tree-clad shore slide by on our right. Despite the cold, the Argonian always seemed more alive when he had the deck of the ship under his clawed feet. I also noticed that he still wore the enchanted gauntlets I had provided. I quietly wished that someone could give me a gift that would take away the cold that seemed to have taken up residence inside me.
We made a fast passage and I was interested to see a large cargo-hauler tied up on the opposite side of the pier. She rode low in the water, as if fully laden, but her crew lounged about the deck, apparently in no hurry to get under way. As I walked up the slope from the shore, I saw that the trader’s shop had been completed, a sign that the colony was progressing.
Even so, Falco appeared to have aged several years since I had last seen him, and he greeted me almost as a drowning man would welcome a rescuer. He clapped me on the shoulder and essayed a vague smile, saying:
“Athlain! Glad to see you! Your being here is the first bit of good news I’ve gotten in a while. If I didn’t know better, I would swear this whole enterprise is cursed.”
He paused before adding grimly, “Or that someone is working actively to see that it fails.”
“Sir?” I responded.
“You saw the replacement supply ship at the dock? Unfortunately, it brought more than construction materials- it also brought trouble. Specifically, the captain, Baro Egnatius. He’s demanding extra payment for delivering the supplies and taking the ore back to the mainland. He keeps using the phrase ‘hazard pay,’ as if this job is more dangerous than any other. Well, I’m not going to pay it! I’ve given up trying to reason with him; please see if you can do better.”
Money was not an issue for me- especially not now that I had access to my locker at the fort. So I cautiously inquired, thinking it might just be a matter of a bribe to smooth things over. But when I probed a bit, Falco shook his head and told me,
“He’s asking for a ridiculous sum- more than his ship and all its cargo are worth. I won’t even repeat it. See if you can talk some sense into him; we
have to make this ore shipment. He’s still down by the dock; says he ‘won’t move’ in case someone ‘tries something’.”
I agreed to do my best and went looking for someone who fit Falco’s description of the difficult captain. Of course, there were only a handful of people in Raven Rock, so anyone new stood out. Captain Egnatius stood out more than most- or at least his paunch did. He was a portly Imperial, and not even the cut of his expensive clothing could hide his girth. He stood at the foot of the gangway with his arms folded and the air of a man prepared to repel boarders.
I walked up and nodded to him, inquiring: “Captain?”
He gave me a contemptuous once-over and sniffed, “Are you the errand-boy? Do you have my extra payment? I already told them that if I had to make this trip on top of Elberoth’s run, it would cost them. And I’m getting tired of waiting.”
I ignored his rudeness, thinking instead that Elberoth was the name of the Bosmer who had captained the ship that wrecked up the coast. I smiled politely and said,
“Captain, I imagine you signed a contract that laid out the compensation for your services. And I doubt if it said anything about ‘extra payment’ for a routine run.”
He sneered in response and grumbled, “I will speak slowly, so you can understand. This boat doesn’t go anywhere ‘til I have that money in my hands. Your boss knows all this, so unless you’re here to pay up, get lost. It’s a good thing you’re dealing with me instead of Elberoth, or you might get hurt.”
That was the second time he had mentioned Elberoth, so I asked how well he knew the Bosmer.
“He’s a good friend of mine, as a matter of fact. Lousy navigator, but a real fighter. Always brandishing that stupid sword and threatening to ‘run somebody through.’ But what do you care? Why don’t you just go and fetch my money, instead of wasting my time?”
It was clear he was not going to listen to me. It was also clear that I could not simply threaten him or attack him. If being arrogant or obnoxious were capital crimes, the greater part of Summerset Isle would be empty, not to mention two-thirds of Valenwood- the males, at least. That last thought brought me back to the Bosmer captain, Elberoth. Egnatius did not appear to know that he was dead. Perhaps there was a way to put that information to use…. But my first responsibility was to report back to Falco.
The colony manager shrugged with irritation when I reported my failure. “No luck, eh? But I think you may be right about using Elberoth’s death to our advantage. I’m not suggesting you lie or anything- but… why don’t you see if Apronia Alfena knows something that would help?”
I could not help recalling Athynae’s admonition about the young Imperial woman, and suppressed a smile at the memory. Of course, if Athynae found out that I had spoken to her, I wouldn’t have much to smile about. Sobered, I saw Apronia coming out of the trading post, arms laden with packages. When I greeted her she immediately shoved the greater part of her burden into my arms and began walking toward a small house.
“It’s so nice to see you again, Athlain. And I’m happy you paid attention and had them build the trading post, instead of a smoky old blacksmith’s shop! It’s amazing how few people listen to good advice, don’t you think? They can’t stop talking long enough to hear what anyone else has to say. They just go on and on, as if their every thought is sent directly from the Divines. But thank The Nine for the trading post- I was forced to wear the same three outfits for the longest time. All my others were ruined in the shipwreck.”
By then, we had reached the house and I was able to quickly interject a question as she waited for me to juggle the packages and hold the door for her at the same time.
“Yes, absolutely. About Captain Elberoth- did you…?”
That was as far as I got before she was off again,
“Oh, him! He was completely incompetent as a ship captain, I can tell you that much. Such an odd little Bosmer, too. Thought he was the best fighter in the province. Always waving that sword around. But then the ship crashed, and he was injured. For all his talk of being a good fighter, he sure didn't last long against those horrible undead things. I ended up taking his saber, and using it to defend myself. About the only thing he ended up being good for, in my opinion.”
I gratefully dropped the packages on a table as she continued,
“It certainly came in handy. Now that I think of it, though, I don't really have much of a use for it.”
Reaching into a corner, she pulled out the old saber she had used to kill the bear on our memorable walk to the colony and thrust it at me point first.
“Here, you take it. Not like it's worth much of anything, but odds are you'd be more likely to use it than I ever will, what with you being in the Legion and all.”
I carefully took the weapon from her and she began opening her parcels, humming a happy tune as she tried on hats. With a feeling of relief, I stepped out the door and closed it behind me.
With time to actually hear myself think again, I examined the saber. It was a fairly typical steel weapon of the type, with decent balance and a reasonable edge. Of note was the script on the hilt, which appeared to be Aldmeris for- “
Foed Shopper?” I wiped at the inscription and realized that what I had taken to be the “d” and “S” were actually a hyphen and a bit of crusted dirt covering a “C”. That made more sense, even if it was still a little bombastic. But the important thing was- the sword was instantly recognizable to anyone who had seen it before. An idea came to me, and I turned the saber so that I was carrying it by the forte, leaving the inscribed hilt uppermost and clearly visible.
In that manner, I casually walked down to the dock, passing close enough to Egnatius that he could get a good look. I did not speak, or even glance in his direction, just stood nearby, looking out to sea. After a moment, he came nearer and reached a hand out, then pulled it back as if he had been burned. Then he spluttered:
“But, how did you.... where is...? You mean he's- dead? You didn't.... you didn't KILL him, did you?”
I did not speak, but grasped the hilt of the saber and made a few passes with it that would have sent Carbo into apoplexy. They had the same effect on Egnatius, but for a different reason. He grunted as if he had been struck in his ample stomach and whined:
“Okay, listen. Maybe I made a bit of a mistake, all right? Everybody makes mistakes, don’t they? Sure they do. So- how about I just take the ship and deliver the ore, and we won't have any sort of problem at all. Just... just don't hurt me. Look, I'm going now, see?”
He was waving so frantically at the crew to make sail and cast off that he nearly tripped going up the gangway. I gave a sword salute, proud that I managed the move without slicing off the tip of my nose.