I started working on what Blood Raven has been up to in Boston, and outlined a first book of a series of her own. Now that I have the details, I decided to work that into January's story as well.
January turns 20! She's not a teenager anymore. That means all those bittersweet feelings that come with growing up, as you realize that you have left a part of your life behind you. As well as moving forward into a new life.
That is really sweet what you said about invisible friends! That is something to cherish.

Renee: Riven is definitely a cutie.
People tend to think of California as really progressive, full of New Age hippie peace and love types. But it is big, really big, and with a huge population. They have a cross-section of people, the same as anywhere. There are places there with as extremely conservative a population as any part of Texas, Florida, or Alabama. Orange County is one. That is where the John Birch Society got started. They thought Nixon was a commie. Nixon! That is how extreme some of these people are. I did some research, and the county with Mt. Shasta is the most republican in all the state. So that is where I put Riven's birthplace.
It does not hurt that it is also a hot bed of UFO sightings and conspiracy theories. Which is not an accident, since those things go hand in hand with conservatism.
Remember that Blood Raven has been active in Detroit for 50 years. 50 years under the same name and identity. People were staring to notice that she had literally not aged a day in that time. It was time for her to move on, as all immortals have to do eventually. She had long overstayed her welcome as it was.
January's original name was August. So I wanted that to be her birth month. Plus her father Romulus was big into Greek and Roman history. So she was named after both the month, and the Emperor Augustus. Just like her brother Julian was named after the Emperor Julian, and the month of July. Then I found out that in the year she was born there was a Friday the 13th in August. So that had to be her birthday.
Book 12.9 - Broken Arrow
August 14th (Wednesday)
January rode her motorcycle down Fourth Street through Royal Oak, passing numerous small businesses such as salons, real estate agents, and even an aluminum siding company. She nervously counted the addresses on her left. She knew her destination had to be here somewhere. She would be at Main Street in a few more blocks. Then she definitely would have gone too far. Had she passed it up? Should she turn around and go back, in case she had missed it?
Unfortunately one of the downsides to riding a motorcycle was that she could not just take out her phone and look at a map app. She was tempted to pull over and do just that. Or perhaps even do that most unmanly thing of all, stop and ask for directions! Once again, she was thankful that she was a woman, and thusly did not have to feel ashamed for even contemplating such a thing.
Then she saw what she was looking for. It was a low, one story brick building along the side of the street. It was narrow, but ran back a long way from the street in a long rectangle. Its front was all red brick. But the long flank of the building was painted in alternating bands of soft earth tones, and plants hung from each window.
January pulled up into the parking lot beside the building. It appeared to be shared with the insurance agency next door. She found a parking spot, and went through with her usual routine of shutting off her electric bike. That involved not only turning it off and pocketing the keys, but also engaging Avery's matter wave adhesive doohicky to glue it to the pavement below. Finally she drew off her scraped up helmet, and took a moment to smooth down her hair.
Then she rose from the Victory Empulse and strode to the door. She wore her new leather pants and boots, along with an old fitted jacket. She paused a moment at the door to once again make sure that she was presentable. There she noted a mural painted within the inset doorway. It depicted a ribbon wrapped around itself in a figure eight. The words "Always Changing, Ever Becoming" were written around the infinity symbol, which was painted in multiple colors.
She swallowed hard and went in. The waiting area inside was humble, to the say the least. It was a tiny cubicle, with a pair of threadbare couches against two walls. A door led deeper into the building, and an even smaller receptionist station sat in one corner. The latter was empty, but a sign in sheet sat there upon the counter before it. January walked up and found that the sheet had a list of names signed in. So she added hers to the bottom, using the pen that was tied to the clipboard with a string. Then she took a seat on one of the couches and waited.
She knew that she should have taken the opportunity to meditate. That was how she normally dealt with empty times like this, especially when on a case. But waiting for supervillains to show up was one thing. This was actually nerve-wracking. She just did not have the wherewithal to order all the thoughts that fought for space in her head.
What was this new therapist going to be like? What was dealing with the mental health insurance going to be like? Would it be a nightmare again, like the last time? How was she going to explain how she had stopped going to therapy? How much could she even tell this person? Her life as Stormcrow was obviously right out of course. But how much else was safe to say?
Just then the door opened and pair of young teens came out. One was a tall, slender young woman wearing a miniskirt and crop top. The other was an equally lanky man with long dark hair and glasses. The woman had a smile on her face, the man just nodded to her as they both left together.
Young teens. January caught herself. They were probably the same age she was. Here she was acting all mature, when so often she felt anything but.
"January?" A woman's voice issued from the open doorway. January rose from the couch to see a short, round woman with curly hair and large round glasses standing there. If she had been about a foot smaller she could have been a denizen of the Shire. As it was she projected an earthy, unassuming exterior, bolstered by the large smile that crested her fair features.
"Yes," January rose, shook the other woman's hand. She hoped that her palms were not sweaty.
"I'm Juniper Kozlowski," the older woman said. "I don't have a receptionist, so it's just me. Ready for your first session? Let's go back to my office."
January nodded, and followed Juniper down a short hallway. Several doors lay to either side. The door at the far end was open, and it led into a large, auditorium-like area. Within January saw a dozen chairs arranged in a circle. But Juniper stepped into one of the side doors before that, and January found herself in a small office.
Again, it was simple and humble. A scratched up and battered desk lay against one wall, piled high with papers. A laptop hummed at its center, and an aging laser printer lurked on a stand in one corner. Across the room another pair of couches and chairs were set up along the walls, along with a small coffee table, and finally a faded fabric chair sat facing them.
January noted several degrees and certifications on the wall, including a Masters of Social Work and a Professional Counselor's License. There were also certifications for Domestic Violence Counseling, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, LGBTQIA+ issues, and others. It certainly looked impressive enough.
Juniper walked to the desk, unplugged the laptop, and brought it back with her to the sitting area. She motioned for January to join her, and they both sat down. The therapist fiddled with the laptop for a few moments. Then she raised her head and looked January in the eye.
"Okay, so you filled out all the forms online ahead of time, that makes things easier." the older woman said. "It says here you were seeing a psychologist for several years, since your attempted suicide. But you stopped a few years ago."
"Yeah," January murmured. She stared down at the old scars that crossed her wrists. "It just didn't seem to be going anywhere at that point. And honestly, the insurance company was driving my mom insane. They would never reimburse her, unless she called them over and over again for months. Then the next time she had to do it all over again. It was a nightmare."
"And how about now?" Juniper asked.
"I'm still on the same insurance from my mom," January frowned. "So I guess now I'll be the one having to constantly harp on them to pay up."
"I'm sorry to hear that," Juniper sighed. "I know what nightmares insurance companies can be. I wish yours was in-network. But since it's not, all I can do is give you a receipt that you can submit for reimbursement from them, the same as before."
"So you said you were not getting anywhere anymore," Juniper went on. "What changed? I mean, what are you hoping to achieve now? Which is another way of me asking exactly what is it I can do for you? You just said gender counseling on the form."
"Well, like I said in the form, I transitioned after my suicide attempt, when I was twelve. I was taking puberty blockers at first, and then later started hormone replacement therapy. I've been living as a girl, as a woman, ever since. And I'm happy that way. I'm more than happy. I'm myself for the first time in my life. Well, almost. I want to have gender confirmation surgery, and I can't do that without two therapists signing off on it first."
"Yes, I have had many trans clients who have had surgery." Juniper nodded. "I can certainly help you with that, and prepare you for what you will have to deal with to make it happen. I know several other therapists that I can refer you to for the second opinion, and I know surgeons that you can consider. Plus I can tell you what they want to see and hear, and what they don't."
"What they don't?" January did not like the sound of that.
"One of the doctors here in Detroit..." Juniper spoke carefully, as if considering each word. "He's an excellent surgeon, one of the best really. But he's also an older gentleman. If you show up to meet him wearing pants, or even tights, he'll refuse you."
"What?" As outright offensive as that was, none of it came as a surprise. All of her life January had been forced to act out a role - project an image - to make everyone around her happy. That had increased tenfold since her transition. She had to always be the perfect girl, but not too perfect. She had to be feminine, but not too feminine, otherwise she would be accused of trying too hard and overcompensating. But if she was not girly enough, then she was just faking. Like by wearing pants instead of a dress for even one day.
"Yes, I am afraid so," Juniper frowned. "As I am sure you know, there is a lot of gate-keeping involved here. Most of that comes from a genuine desire to help you, and make sure that you are making the right decision. Right now you can detransition and go back to your old life at any time. But you cannot go back from surgery. Once it's done, it's done. We want to make sure you are ready for that."
"Unfortunately, some of the people involved are from older generations, and have some archaic views on what a woman or a man should be. And don't even think of bringing up non or third gendered people with them! You can butt your head up against the wall with them, or you can navigate around them to get what you want."
"But if I was cis, I could just walk into any surgeon's office and get a boob job, or vaginoplasty, and all they would ask is 'check or charge'? Or I could tell my family doctor that I wanted testosterone pills, or Viagra, and they would just hand them right over without question. But when I need gender affirming medicine, I have jump through all these damn hoops like a circus animal."
"Yes," Juniper agreed with her. "I sense you are angry, and frustrated. Tell me more about that."
"You're damn right I'm angry!" January fumed. "It must be so fraking nice to be born with the privilege of being human."
"I won't say that you have a right to be angry," Juniper said. "You do not need a right to feel angry. You don't need a right to feel anything. Your feelings are yours, and require no justification. What you do with them, or what you allow them to do to you, that is what matters. That is where they can make your life better, or worse. I can help you with that, I can help you with anything you share with me. This is what I am here for."
"Please don't think of me as just someone you need to appease in order to get what you need from life," Juniper went on. "If surgery is right for you, then I don't doubt you will get it. I will help you get to that point. In the meantime I can also help you with other things too. That is what people pay me for!"
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January stopped at Avery's place on the way home from the therapist. She threaded her way past his car in the driveway. His yellow Geo was the only one there, so that meant his mom was probably working at the hospital, as usual. She pulled her nearly silent electric bike to the back porch, and locked it down as usual.
The back door was open, allowing air to flow in through the screen door behind it. January knocked on the frame, and a moment later Avery came trundling up from the stairs below. He led January inside, and she noticed his grandmother sitting in the kitchen, staring listlessly at a Sudoku puzzle spread across the table before her.
January gave her a wave, but the old woman did not seem to notice her, or acknowledge her in any way. She followed Avery back down into the Gadget Cave, where she saw he had a video game open in one computer screen, and what looked like a technical readout in the other. Sitting on the workbench was his Gadget helmet, connected to a bunch of wires leading back to his PC.
"So how did it go?" Avery leaned against the old, beat-up punching back that hung from a stud in the ceiling. "Good, bad, ugly?"
"I guess it was all right." January plopped down upon the frayed and torn couch that took up the center of the basement. "I mean, I went to therapy for years when I was younger. It's nothing new."
"Yeah, but you weren't... you know who back then." Avery put his hands together, and made a pantomime of a pair of wings flapping upward, like a bird. "All of our lives are different now. And you weren't this close to getting surgery then. You're an adult now. So it's actually possible."
"It is," January murmured. "It's just that... life has changed so much lately. Kell's moving away. Blackjack, I think he is too. My mom's doing this senate thing. My brother... well there's that. My father's a useless chud. And then there's that... thing of ours."
"Yeah, I know, this thing of ours can be hard to juggle," Avery said seriously. "Are you having second thoughts? You know, your great, great gran was not wrong when she said that there is no shame in not doing it. You can quit, just quit, and walk away and live your life."
"No, I can't do that," January insisted without even thinking. "I mean, that's not it. It's not a problem."
The Hierophant screamed as his body was dragged across the marble floor of the Belle Isle Casino. Dragged to his horrific doom, as blood spurted, and his body turned into spaghetti.
"I can deal with the cape life," January declared. "It's just all together, it's a lot sometimes."
"Hey, look on the bright side," Avery mused. "When your mother's a senator, she'll get that sweet, sweet socialism that all federal employees have. That means you'll get that socialized medicine as a dependant. Not the capitalism healthcare the rest of us plebians get stuck with."
"I'm sure that would make dealing with the insurance company a lot easier." January nodded. "If she wins that is. It's hardy a guarantee."
"What does Blood Raven say: A conjure woman who doubts-" Avery began.
"Is a conjure woman who fails," January finished the sentence. "I know, I'm usually the one telling Xochitl that."
"See, there you go, all wise martial arts master again." Avery smiled. "You already have one disciple. Soon enough you'll have an entire Crow School of Kung Fu. But you'll still have to defeat your rivals of the evil Cobra Pi! Muhahahaha!"
"You know, that's the easiest part of life," January said. "Punching things-"
The sound of tires screeching snapped January's head around sharply. Something felt wrong. Something felt very, very wrong. She was on her feet in an instant, and her mind was already in the astral. She did not sense any obvious red flags. There were no magical menaces approaching, no corrupted stains in the astral. The only meta-human she sensed was Avery beside her. But she did sense something out toward the street.
There were two auras out there, either on the sidewalk or in the road. One was hunched over, as if seated, and she imagined that might be someone in a car. The other was standing upright before the first. Both were entirely ordinary. But the sharp stink of fright clouded the one in the car, while the other was hidden in a fog of confusion.
That is when January realized that the house above them was empty.
"It's your grandma," January cried. She leaped for the stairs, and landed halfway up them with a single bound. She tore through the back door and into the yard at top speed. She could feel Avery behind her, racing as fast as his feet could carry him. But he had not spent years honing his body into a magical armament. Without his suit of powered armor, he could not hope to keep pace with her.
January dropped her astral sensing when she turned the corner and headed down the driveway. She could see the street ahead with her meat eyes now, and did not need to distract her physical senses with her magical ones. She continued at full clip, onlookers be damned, and was in the street in seconds.
Avery's grandmother stood there. She was dressed in her housecoat and her hair was in curlers. She just stared around herself, as if dumbfounded. Sitting just a few feet from her was a massive pickup truck, idling its engine. January smelled burnt rubber, and saw a fresh streak of it lining the road behind the truck. Clearly, it had been just an instant away from running her over. The man behind the steering wheel looked like he was ready to scream, or faint. There was no telling exactly which one.
"Nana!" Avery screamed from behind January. That brought his grandmother's head around. Then January was upon her. She planted herself firmly between the frail old woman and the truck. Not all the monsters in the Abyss could have gotten past her then, let alone a simple Dodge.
"Nana, what are you doing out here?" Avery had reached the two of them, and he reached out to hug his grandmother. "You can't do this."
"What did I do," she wondered in a thin, trembling voice. "How did I get here?"
"You must have walked out in the street," Avery said. His voice sounded calm. But the fear in his eyes was plain for January to see. No, not fear, it was dread. Like her, he was plainly looking beyond this single, sudden incident. As he had said before, she was growing worse, slowly but surely.
"It's just moments now," his Nana said as he led her from the street. January followed close behind, and waved the pickup on. "Everything is just moments now. They've come unraveled."
"What's unraveled." Avery asked gently.
"The moments," his Nana said. "My memories. I can't keep them all stitched together. They're like a loose thread, the more I pull at it, the more they all just fall apart."
"That's ok," Avery insisted. "I'll keep it all stitched together for you Nana."
But the look that he gave January told her that he knew he was lying.
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