QUOTE(Eva @ Feb 19 2013, 04:09 AM)

Okay, I�m a bit of a mess this morning.
Had a rough night, and I can�t really talk to anybody about it. I broke up with my boyfriend last night and I just feel so blegh. It was horrible. He didn�t even give me a reason other than the fact he thought I was too �flirty� with other guys, and a comment I left on the forums about somebody�s picture pretty much sent his jealousy into orbit.
I don�t have many friends as I have huge trust issues, but the only friends I do have are mostly guys, and my boyfriend didn�t like that. I find it�s easier being friends with guys because they aren�t as B*tchy as girls. It�s hard to be paranoid that you�re being talked about behind your back that way.
I�m not sure why I�m burdening you all with this, but, although this sounds so sad, you all have been like an online family to me and seeing as I don't have much family of my own, I kinda like being around you guys. I guess I could really use some advice? Somebody to talk to? I don�t know. Any girls on here have been in a similar situation?
I�m not sure whether it�s worth talking to him straight away, or leaving it a while and seeing how he gets. I really don�t know.
I�ve been with him for three years and he�s the only boyfriend I�ve ever had, so I have no idea what to do.
Like I said I don�t really do friends, and I don�t speak to my parents. I literally have nobody I can have a genuine talk with; I always had my boyfriend for that.
Ahh� sorry to make your day miserable.
I will be smiley, happy Eva again� just kinda needed to get it out :
Leave it be for a bit. That's the best advice I can give you.
My husband and I have been together for almost 5 years, married for 2 months. Now, when we broke up 3-4 years ago, it was I who left him. So, in this situation, I was with your bf's mentality.
It's not you, unless you're dancing up against every guy and handing our your number like candy. He is insecure. He has a beautiful girl with him, and instead of going "Wow, I'm the MAN!" he's going "She wants other men."
5 years ago I wasn't the same person I am now. I mean, dude, you see how I act, right? Like an idiot. I took myself so seriously back then, and even then thought I was a joke. I was insecure, to a very critical point. I left my would-be husband over it. Even after we got back together when our son was born, I still did it. This whole "Man, I'm so awesome" attitude didn't happen until about 5-6 months ago.
So leave it be, love. If he takes things to heart, that's HIS issue. And you're not making our days miserable :]
If you ever need to PM someone and vent, then you can PM me. -hugs-