@SubRosa: Again you have picked out the importance of Julian's interactions with the children. I had intended this as a quiet interlude before Julian hits the road again, but this has turned into quite a revealing window into her character, as her sense of herself re-emerges again after years of addiction. And yes, Matius is a recurring character, more so than in the game. I already have a whole back story for him, and hope to bring it out in later chapters.
@mALX: So sorry to hear about your PC problems. You're cursed, you know that? First your XBox, now your PC! What's next? Your TV? I'm glad to see you back - you've been missed.
@Destri: Your rewrite of that troublesome sentence is much better. I'll dutifully go back and fix it. Thanks for the input in that. As for the gross stuff, no, I simply can not resist. Having worked in necropsy through three years in vet school, I have no problems eating lunch while working on a bloated cow.

To be honest, the smell isn't so bad when it's coming from a dead animal, but when said animal is still alive . . . ugh. Not good.
No, it wouldn't kill me to sit back and enjoy the gushing, but it would kill Julian! She's not accustomed to it, and won't be for a while. Eventually, she does learn to accept the inevitable, but you'll see she draws the line somewhere!
Julian finally catches up to the purpose of her whole trip to Kvatch: Martin.
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Chapter 4.8 Martin
The children shared breakfast with me, mostly quiet and subdued. Afterwards, they trailed behind me to gra-Sharob’s fire. The big Orsimer was working on a mail cuirass. She grinned at me when I paused.
“Good morning, Julian!” she said heartily, shooting a mock glare at the kids. Grouped behind me, they responded with giggles. “I’ve got your weapons here,” she nodded at the two swords stacked against the tent flap. “How do you find your armor today?” As she had before, gra-Sharob had left the leathers and mail cuirass folded just inside the pavilion where I had spent the night.
“They’re fine,” I answered, shrugging the leather cuirass over my shoulders. “I appreciate the work, ma’am.”
“Good!” gra-Sharob put the hammer down and stepped to the tent. Picking up the shield, she held it out to me so I could see the Kvatch Wolf. “Good as new. You’ll find it more durable than that leather thing.”
“I think I will, ma’am,” I took the round disc, hefting it thoughtfully. There was a flat hook on the back of it, that would allow me to attach it to a loop on the outside of my pack. Taking the iron longsword, I noticed that gra-Sharob had made a new sheath for it. Black leather capped with a dark iron ferrule, it had fancy script on one side.
Daedra Slayer. I smiled.
A good name for this weapon - it has killed a fair number of those creatures. Pulling the sword partway out of the scabbard, I evaluated the blade in the morning light. Its keen edge caught the roseate sunlight, tossed it back with a slight red shimmer.
“This is beautiful, gra-Sharob,” I commented, putting it next to my pack. “It will be useful as a backup weapon.”
“Well, then, I think you’ll like this for your primary sword,” gra-Sharob handed across the steel longsword Matius had given me. The plain brown scabbard, with the small Kvatch Wolf insignia, gleamed with fresh cleaning. Heavier and wider than the iron blade, its hilt snugged into my hand as if coming home.
It has been a long time since I held one of these, I thought to myself. As the sword moved through the air in a figure-eight, the rising sun flashed off the tapered blade.
Good balance, solid weight. When the sword slid back into its sheath, I noticed silver script gleaming on the leather.
Hero of Kvatch. Frowning, I looked up at gra-Sharob.
“Savlian was standing behind you last night, when you were, ah, educating the kids,” the Orsimer smith said. She shrugged. “He told me to add the name to the sheath. I wasn’t about to argue with a
real hero.”
Neither would I. Shaking my head, I buckled the sword belt over the leather cuirass. “Thanks for all your work, gra-Sharob,” I said. “How much do I owe you?”
“You closed the Gate,” gra-Sharob picked up the mailed cuirass she had been working on. “You helped Savlian clear the city and drive the daedra out. It’s more a question of what we owe you.”
“It doesn’t feel right, ma’am,” I insisted, “taking advantage of your skills without fair recompense. It’s going to be difficult for you, all of you, with so much loss. You need as much income as you can get in the days to come.”
“I was poor once,” gra-Sharob grunted. “It’s not so scary, once you know what you can live without.”
Her implacable expression told me further argument would be futile. “Well, this one time, then,” I said finally. “Thanks, again.” Picking up my pack, I turned to leave. “Have you seen Martin?”
“Yes, I think I saw him walking towards the meadow, where your horse is,” gra-Sharob returned to her hammering. The children jumped up.
I can’t have them following me. With a shake of my head to them, I met Avik’s gaze. “Why don’t you stay and tend the fire for gra-Sharob?” I suggested to him. He stared, wide-eyed, from me to the Orsimer, who had shot me a glance.
“And I was just thinking it would be nice to have an apprentice -” her growl trailed off, her black eyes sliding over to the young Redguard. After a moment, he nodded. While the smith pointed him to the bellows over the fire, I looked at the other children.
“Irinwe, Melissada, why don’t you go look for wood for the fires,” I added. “And Dalen, Falisia,” I led them to Sigrid’s campfire, where the Nord woman sat tending her retort. “let’s help Sigrid gather ingredients. She can show you which ones to pick.” The woman glanced up at me in surprise, then regarded the youngest pair.
“Well, I suppose these ragamuffins can be of some use,” she admitted mock-grudgingly. With an exaggerated sigh she rose to her feet and showed them a pair of empty sacks. Turning to me, she stopped me with a hand on my arm. “Julian, I know you’re leaving,” she said quietly. “There are many of us who would like you to stay,” she shook her head. From a pocket of her skirt, she drew out a small volume. “Take this, you’ll find it of value in the days to come, I’m sure.”
The Pocket Guide to Cyrodiilic Flora. I met Sigrid’s gaze. “Thanks, Sigrid. I think it will be very helpful.”
As gra-Sharob had said, I found Martin with Boldon in the meadow, stroking Paint’s neck as the gelding nuzzled his shoulder. Boldon cinched up the saddle, then gave the horse a final pat on the rump. He turned to me when I reached them.
“Hullo, Julian,” the Redguard greeted me. “I’ve got Paint ready for you, as you asked.”
“Thanks, Boldon,” I responded. “I really appreciate it. But it seems,” I looked down, toeing the shorn grass of the hayfield, “I may just have apprenticed your son to gra-Sharob.”
“Oh, you did, did you?” Boldon responded, his tone warming. Hesitantly I looked up at his smiling eyes. “I’ve been trying to think up ways to keep that boy busy,” he continued. “But what about Falisia? He’s kind of taken her on as his responsibility.”
“I sent her and Dalen to Sigrid,” I admitted. “Where I’m going, I can’t have the children following me, sir. I’ve got Irinwe and Melissada gathering wood for the campfires.”
“Good, keep them all busy,” Boldon nodded in approval. “Better than dwelling on -” his eyes darkened. “- losing their families.” I looked away from the grief in his eyes.
He’s doing the same thing for himself, too. With a shake of his rounded shoulders, he turned to the priest standing quietly next to Paint’s head. “Martin, this is Julian of Anvil. Julian,” he glanced at me, “Martin.”
Matching Martin’s silent regard, I found him to be about my age. His dark brown hair framed a high-browed face, his hazel eyes an echo of the Emperor’s own.
Yes, he is indeed the Emperor’s son. He has the same eyes. Already tired and weary. “Hello, Martin,” I greeted him, as Boldon walked away.
“Hello, Julian,” he responded.
Gods! His voice is so like the Emperor’s. “I hear you’ve come looking for me,” he continued while I struggled for my breath. He frowned, the crow’s feet at the corners of his eyes deepening. “Why?”
In an attempt to recover my composure, I turned to Paint and hung my pack from his cantle.
How to tell this priest that he is the Emperor’s son? He just survived three very scary nights in a destroyed town. He waited patiently as I settled my weapons and the buckler on the saddle, securing them to the rings attached to the cantle. When the tears that threatened to emerge in my eyes and voice faded away, I turned back to Martin.
“I came looking for Martin the priest, sir,” I said quietly, looking around the hayfield. Except for Paint, whose discretion could be counted on, we were alone.
“Have you need of a priest, ma’am?” Martin was skeptical. “I’m not sure what good I would be to you.” He shrugged, his eyes turning dark and his voice bitter. “I’m not much good as a priest.”
“The Emperor sent me to find you, sir,” I said finally.
Here it comes. He’s not going to believe me, Jauffre. Martin’s level brows, so much like Uriel Septim’s, rose in surprise.
“Find me?” Martin repeated. “Why? The Emperor is dead, ma’am.”
“I was with him when he -” I faltered momentarily, “died. He gave me a final task in his last few moments, sir.” Now I locked gazes with Martin. “Find his last surviving son.”
“Surviving son?” Martin stared at me. “But all three of the princes were assassinated, too -” his eyes unfocused as he caught his breath. “An
illegitimate son, ma’am?” He turned from me, stepping two paces away. “I never heard anything about the Emperor having an illicit affair -”
At Paint’s head, I rubbed his long nose while Martin muttered under his breath. He turned back to me. “But the Emperor would need to be very discreet about such affairs, no?” he asked me. I nodded silently. He considered me for a few moments more. “Then why are you looking for me, ma’am? I know of no such son. How am I supposed to help you find him?”
With a level gaze, I shrugged. “I already found him, sir,” I replied. “Now I need to get him to Brother Jauffre at Weynon Priory.”
“Oh, you found him then?” Martin returned to Paint’s side, rubbing his hand along the gelding’s shoulder. “Where is he?”
I only waited, watching Martin. He met my gaze after a few moments, puzzled by my reticence. Then his eyes widened, and his face paled. “Me?
I’m the illegitimate son?” He took a step back, raising his hands in a warding motion. “No, no, there’s been a mistake, ma’am. My father’s not the Emperor, he’s just a simple farmer.”
“I wouldn’t believe it, either, sir,” I said quietly, turning my gaze to Paint’s bridle. Checking the fit of the headstall as I had been taught, I continued, “But I’ve met the Emperor, and I see him in you, Martin.” Again, I rubbed the gelding’s nose, tucking his forelock beneath the browband. “You have his eyes, his nose, his - “ I swallowed the lump in my throat, “voice. There’s no mistake.”
His stunned gaze remained on me, his hands dropping to his sides. “Somehow,” he frowned at me, “I believe you, ma’am. But my place -” He looked past me, at the camp beyond.
“Come with me to Weynon Priory, sir,” I said. “Brother Jauffre can explain things better than I.” I could see the conflict between the obligation to stay and help his fellow refugees here at ruined Kvatch, the people he had known for most of his life, and my request to accompany me to Weynon Priory where his destiny waited.
“Well,” Martin’s tone took on a quiet determination. “You destroyed the Oblivion Gate. You helped the guard drive the daedra back. You helped us.” His hazel eyes returned to mine. “You didn’t come here to do all this, and yet you did, ma’am. I’ll come with you, and hear what this Brother Jauffre has to say.”