Rihanae: Indeed, she has a spirit guide in the form of an Ayleid priestess who doesn't speak often, and tends to speak more esoterically for poor Tandilwen! Unlike Lissa, however, she doesn't use a guardian stone to speak to her, and she's been hearing Magdalenya all her life. But she still hasn't gotten used to her riddled speech!
Grits: Thank you! It is good to have you here, and I'm pleased to know you are enjoying the story!
Zalphon:Thank you!
mALX:Thank you! I love the surrealism of writing dream sequences, especially because it allows me to change up the style, as you noticed. They are my favorite to write, sometimes, actually.
Chapter 3.1--
Trouble in Anvil“Good morning, Tandilwen,” greeted Oleta, the master trainer of restoration magic, when Tandilwen walked through the door of the Mages Guild hall one morning.
“Good morning, Oleta,” Tandilwen replied, looking around. “Is my aunt around?”
“Actually, I think she is taking the day off, if I’m not mistaken. Traven said something about it to me when I arrived earlier.”
“Oh,” said Tandilwen, a little surprised. Carahil almost never took a day off. Usually, if she did, it meant something was going on…. “Thanks, Oleta!” she called, as she ran out the door, barely catching Oleta’s reply.
“Anytime….”
Carahil spent so much time at the guild hall that Tandilwen often forgot she had a house of her own. But she had to have a house, at least so her own children had a place to stay. Well, Arquen, at least. Orintur was now married and living in Cheydinhal… Tandilwen smiled to herself when she thought of her cousin and his lovely wife, Eilonwy. The two were so in love, and Tandilwen could only hope to find a love such as theirs. However, she was not about to hold her breath for it….
Arquen was Orintur’s twin sister, but the two of them couldn’t have been more different. While Orintur was always kind and courteous, and eager to learn the art of magic, Arquen was often cold and calculating. She was selfish, demanding, and insanely jealous of her brother’s successes within the guild. She had shown promising talent as a child, but all that was overshadowed by some sort of darkness that seemed to reside within her heart.
When Tandilwen arrived at Seaside Manor, Carahil’s beautiful vine-covered house situated outside the city and overlooking the sea and the harbor to the east, she stopped at the door, hesitating to go inside. If Carahil was having trouble with Arquen—usually the case, when she took a day off from her duties at the guild—Tandilwen really didn’t feel like becoming involved. She had tried to like her cousin, but Arquen never made it easy for anyone to get along with her.
Finally building up the courage to go inside, Tandilwen reached out and opened the door. The moment the door was open, she could hear angry voices up the stairs, and things were crashing around. This was not the first time an argument like this had erupted between Arquen and her mother. Arquen had always had violent tendencies.
“Gods protect me,” she whispered as she cautiously began ascending the staircase. At the top of the stairs, she stopped and listened, trying to discern what the argument was about this time….
“You never loved me! You were always too concerned with your work for the guild to pay any attention to me!” Arquen raged from inside the chamber to the left of the stairs. Moments later, something glass smashed against the wall, and then Carahil’s voice rose from further inside, sounding desperate and pleading.
“Arquen, you know that’s not true! I have loved you ever since the day you were born. I don’t understand where all this hatred of yours comes from!”
“It comes from the pit of my soul, Mother,” Arquen said darkly. Tandilwen could barely hear her from outside the chamber, but it sent chills down her spine. “I’ve had it with you and your precious Nine Divines! I hate you and I hate them all!”
“Please,” Carahil said, her voice tense and frightened. Was she crying? “Arquen, I’m begging you—don’t do this to me. I’m your mother….”
“My mother is dead,” Arquen replied. Seconds later, the door swung open and Arquen stood there, glaring at Tandilwen. “What are you doing here? Get out of my way, you filthy half-breed.”
Without a word, Tandilwen moved aside and watched her cousin stalk down the stairs, disappearing out the front door and slamming it behind her. Then she turned and ran into the chamber, where she found her aunt sitting at a table, sobbing into her arms. When she felt Tandilwen’s hand on her back, she lifted her head and looked at her, saying, “I don’t understand why she is doing this to me… Where did I go wrong?”
Tandilwen put her arms around Carahil and knelt down beside her, saying, “You did the best you could. You were a wonderful mother to both of your children. My father has always praised you as a mother, as have many others.”
“Then why does my daughter hate me so?”
“I really can’t say, Aunt Carahil,” Tandilwen replied, feeling for her. “No one understands why Arquen is the way she is….”
“She has never been the same, since her father died,” Carahil replied, after composing herself.
Tandilwen didn’t know much about the man who had fathered her aunt’s children. They hadn’t been married—that much Tandilwen knew for sure. But what little she had gathered from the town gossip was that he had been the first mate in a fine crew of sailors, and he died when their ship went down during a hurricane less than a day away from their scheduled return. Carahil had been devastated by his death, especially being left with two children to raise on her own, while she was still studying the arcane arts in the guild. It slowed her education down, and left a huge burden on her shoulders, but she bore the burden admirably and was left all of her lover’s fortune, including his house to live in.
“Aunt Carahil, you can’t keep blaming yourself for the choices Arquen has made. Look at Orintur—he is so good and such a talented mage. You raised both of them together, and if he turned out good, you must have done something right.”
Carahil sighed and looked out the window toward the sea. “Arquen took her father’s death harder than any of us—they were always so close. The day his ship went down, it was as if he pulled her soul right down with him. And I tried so hard to fill the void that was left when he died, but it was no use. My bright and beautiful daughter was gone; all that was left was a cold and empty shell—a reminder of what she could have been, if only….”
“It was not your fault,” Tandilwen insisted gently. “You did all that you could. She is the only one responsible for how she treats herself and others. You can only do so much for her, Aunt Carahil.”
Carahil smiled faintly, and said, “You sound so much older than you are sometimes. It’s one of the things I’ve always loved about you.”
Tandilwen felt herself blush slightly, and she couldn’t help turning her face down toward the floor. “I only say what my heart tells me to,” she mumbled timidly.
“Then you should always listen to what it has to say,” said Carahil, placing her hand on Tandilwen’s shoulder and looking up into her eyes. “You may not look much like your father, but there is much of him in you that I see. Not only do you have his eyes, but you also have his adventurous spirit and his kind heart.”
Tandilwen didn’t really know what to say. It felt good to be complimented, but she always felt so awkward when people praised her because she didn’t really know how to respond. So, she remained silent and stayed with her aunt for a good part of the day, helping her around the house and trying to ease the stress from her troubles with Arquen.
******
Arquen was a very troubled woman. She was so filled with anger that the love she once had for her family and the Nine Divines was turned into hatred—a hatred that had rooted itself so deeply in her soul that it was likely she would never be free of it. She was cold and dark, and most of the people in Anvil were uncomfortable around her, to say the least. That’s why she liked to avoid the city when she left her house. And she found her own perfect sanctuary, deep within the bowels of Nirn, in a cave just a little to the north, situated between Anvil and the township of Brina Cross.
In the shrouded darkness of her sanctuary, Arquen took out her fury on the rats, gutting them viciously while they squirmed in agony. Then she poured the warm sanguine liquid into a cracked ceramic goblet, and said, “I curse you, so-called Nine Divines! From the very pit of my soul I hate you all!”
Emptying the contents of the goblet into her mouth, she threw it to the hard stone floor where it smashed at her feet. Glaring into the fire she had made nearby—the only light in the entire cavern—she said to the empty darkness, “The gods play with the hearts of foolish mortals and watch them squirm in misery with sickest delight…. My mother wants me to honor the Nine like another witless fool, giving my all for nothing in return! But I’d sooner slit the throats of those pompous priests than to listen to them bantering about holiness… What do they even know about what is holy? They know nothing! They are nothing! I am done with chapel priests and their lies! I’ll show them what is holy…!”
Grabbing her knife and hiding it within her skirts, Arquen turned and headed out of the cave, a chilling and unholy look on her face….
******
It was cold and windy that night. A storm had moved in and the waves beat against the shore like an angry torrent. Tandilwen shivered and walked away from the window, pulling her shawl up over her shoulders and sighing. So much for sitting out on the balcony, admiring the moonlight….
Hasathil was sitting at the writing desk the two of them shared, scribbling furiously in her diary and lost in her own world. Tandilwen smiled a little, when thinking how in love her sister was with Morvayn’s apprentice. They would make the perfect couple, she mused. But then her smile faded when she thought about their father, who was still very set against their match. Hasathil was right—he would never allow it.
Thinking of forbidden romances naturally led Tandilwen to thinking about Maximus, and as she sat on her bed she let out a sigh. Maximus would be getting married in less than a month, and that would mean the end of their romance permanently. She had known it from the start, but like a fool in love, she let herself fall. But who could blame her? Maximus was charming, gorgeous and…nearly perfect….
“Tandilwen?” Hasathil asked suddenly, bringing Tandilwen out of her thoughts. “Are you all right?”
“Yes, why do you ask?”
Hasathil chuckled a little, and said, “You just keep sighing, and you look so…pensive…” She stopped to gasp then, and said, “By the Nine, Tandilwen! You’re in love, aren’t you?”
“Huh?” Tandilwen asked in confusion. Then she felt her face grow hot with the realization that she was, in fact, in love with Maximus. But there was no way she could tell anyone other than Clesa. Her best friend was the only person she would trust with that secret—and the only person who wouldn’t tell her she was wrong. So, she shook her head, and answered, “Me? In love? Hasathil, I think that wine you had with supper has clouded your mind.”
“If you say so,” Hasathil replied, closing her diary and deciding it was time to get ready for bed. “Being in love isn’t all that bad, you know. There’s nothing wrong with losing control once in awhile.”
Tandilwen didn’t reply. She knew plenty about losing control that was for sure. Climbing into bed, she looked at the window and watched the water slide down the glass until she drifted off to sleep…
******
As I approached the platform through the pool of warm water, I kept my gaze fixed on the robed figure standing at the top. The woman stopped performing her ritual and turned to me with her cold, hate-filled eyes. “Nin gweriannech,”
the woman said in a sneering voice, her eyes reflecting the fire of a nearby torch and sending chills down my spine… Tandilwen jumped awake in her bed, relieved to find it was only that dream again. Her forehead was covered in tiny beads of sweat, but the air was cold. It was still storming and it was night, but she could hear the bells of the cathedral ringing loudly, and some people were shouting out in the streets. Their voices were muffled by the thunder and heavy rain, so Tandilwen couldn’t make out what they were saying, but she knew something was wrong.
Hasathil was already out of her bed, wrapping a robe around her body and going to the window, saying, “What do you suppose is wrong? Do you think a ship struck some rocks coming into the harbor?”
“It’s possible,” Tandilwen replied, still trying to shake off her dream. “We should go downstairs and see if Father knows what is wrong.”
Hasathil nodded and followed her sister out the door, where they bumped into Eldaril just as he was emerging from his chamber. “Oh, pardon me, ladies,” he said, looking up and down Tandilwen’s tall, willowy figure, which was accentuated by the pale blue and white robe she was wearing tightly tied around her slender waist.
She felt her cheeks flush, and nodded slightly to him before hurrying down the stairs. She was embarrassed, and had figured it out by now that her father was trying to set Eldaril up with her, but she was too eager to find out what was going on to allow herself to dwell on it presently.
Downstairs in the parlor, their Khajiiti cook was standing by the window, peering out into the dark, stormy night. She turned when she heard them all enter, her tail flicking nervously.
“Kishari, what’s happening?” asked Tandilwen, as they went to stand by the window.
“I do not know, Miss Tandilwen,” said Kishari, a worried look on her cat-like face.
“Is our father here?” asked Hasathil with concern.
“Master Soruman went out to see what the trouble is,” the aging Khajiiti replied. “He told this one not to let the young ladies leave the house.”
“Of course he did,” Tandilwen replied, rolling her eyes a little. She was never allowed to have any fun….
At that moment, Soruman came back inside, drenched with rain. He bolted the door and turned to them, saying, “There was a murder just outside the cathedral. The guards were not quick enough to react and whoever was responsible got away. They ran in the direction of the old Benirus Manor, and the guard is searching the property for the murderer.”
“But that’s only right next door!” Hasathil exclaimed fearfully. “What if they come here?”
“Go into Kishari’s quarters. Lock the door and don’t come out until I come to get you. Eldaril, I want you to come with me.”
Kishari began leading the two girls toward the basement door, but Soruman stopped Tandilwen, handing her a silver dagger in a crimson leather sheath—it was a family heirloom that was usually on display above the fireplace. Tandilwen hadn’t noticed it was gone until her father was placing it in her hands.
“Go,” he said without an explanation. “Eldaril and I will search the house from top to bottom to be sure that it is safe.”
Tandilwen knew why he gave her the dagger, and she nodded before turning and following her sister and Kishari down to the cellar, where they would wait.
******
Half an hour went by before Soruman and Eldaril came to get them, and Tandilwen spent that time sitting in a corner of the basement with a book in her lap, while Hasathil paced nervously nearby. Kishari snacked on some dried biscuits she kept near her bed; but all three of them jumped to attention when they heard the basement door being unlocked.
As the two tan-skinned Altmeri came down the stairs, Hasathil ran to them, clinging to her father, and asking, “Oh, is it safe? What is happening?”
“All is well here,” Soruman answered, kissing his smallest daughter on the top of her head. Placing his arm around her, he looked at the other two, and said, “We should all return to bed for the night. We will discuss more about this in the morning.”
Tandilwen followed her sister back up to their chamber, but she wondered why her father wasn’t talking about it right away. Who was murdered? And would the murderer be caught?